i finally did something that has been on my list for the longest time – get serious with olympic lifting. i acquired the skill three years ago, but slowly drifted away because time was a big restraining factor. i would still do cleans here and there, but never touching snatches since the drop. it only further dampened my hopes of returning to olympic lifting when my shoulder fell apart six months ago. i knew i had to do something if i truly wanted it back. the first step to getting serious was to reach out to a coach who would correct and refine my techniques. today’s first session was very good on working through regaining the fundamentals and correcting any bad habits
my team’s jack-o-lantern submission, the venom, came second in pumpkin carving contest. dressing up to work today is obligatory because this office takes halloween very seriously. i didn’t put a lot of thought into planning my costume but pulled out a last minute burglar outfit. a whole afternoon of halloween extravaganza with food, contests, games and pumpkins. it was actually quite tiring and maybe more tiring than actually working
sales centre hopping has me drooling over cool models and showroom space. i need to start being proactive with my search as i continue to build on self investment and gain value in life. it’s about time to get serious again about the phenomenon of investment and building my the asset checklist i’ve urned. i have no doubt that one day, a piece of that will be mine. it’s a good feeling i’m inching closer to the ambitious goal i once made a commitment to. knowing where i’m going is a good feeling to have and it’s a main reason why i work as hard as i do
i know my way around the clinic the second time around and the same radiologist helped me take another batch of xrays. the bad news couldn’t get any worse each batch as the ones taken today shows my bone is now displaced and not in the right place. with that, the specialist decided surgery will take place tomorrow and i’ll be opened to do one of the two possible procedures. the news hit me hard, so stunned i wasn’t able to collect any of my emotions to react or think. the rest of the day was a blur because i felt completely empty inside with no feelings, no appetite, no motivation and none of anything. i beared all that burden alone as if i’ve always been alone from the start. i finally cried well into the evening and i’m glad i did; i found out at least i have emotions. i’m not scared of the procedure, but the thought of having something inserted in me makes me not me
one on one session tonight was a productive one because all attention was on me so had to take things more seriously than usual. i was able to fast track and cover the bulk of what i needed to solidify for my upcoming promotion test. all that i was trying to avoid doing had to be done tonight, there was no choice given. there was even time at the end where i had to do a few randomly selected poomsaes and he gave me constructive criticism. this was not the time to half ass because he forced me to restart from the beginning when when it wasn’t up to standard
today’s performance is unworthy of this blue uniform. let down a lot of people and most importantly myself with lack of concentration and attention of detail. disappointment all over, i am the harshest critic of myself and should never allow that to happen again. time to tighten it up and be more serious and prepared for the next.