day 1278 Рroger surges 

no regrets staying up until 4:45am just so i can witness federer win another australian open. much of the day was spent being a nerd doing my assignment, reading articles i enjoyed. the promotion test went smoothly and nothing particular went wrong, but somehow i’m feeling strangely bad about myself. the feeling of dissatisfaction of not being good enough and unworthiness is expanding in my head. i’m losing faith in myself and losing grip on what i want to achieve. hopefully that changes when i wake up tomorrow for a fresh start to the week

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day 1066 – annual award

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another busy season of taekwondo comes to an end with the passing of canada cup. through this season, i have found much success further developing my own competition game as well as training my students. it hasn’t been easy at all, there has been lots of struggles and self doubts along the way, but i got the job done at the end of the day. here’s to another grand champion trophy to add to my collection. i don’t know how many more competitions i have in me; i am hoping won’t end just yet

day 544 – fighting self

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it’s one of those days where nothing happened but i just feel really hopeless and everything appears so grim. the feeling i get that i am fighting myself where¬†it’s a no win situation no matter what perspective i look at it. knowing what i need to do but still can’t do it is the hardest thing i have to swallow. as hard as this process is, it’s something no one can help me with and i must do it for myself. i better work hard to figure it out because time isn’t stopping for me. this is time for a self reflection and a true test of how badly i want it

day 106 – living without a dream

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a place of mind…is it really as simple as it sounds?? all i feel is a place of distress, dilemma and uncompromising fortunes. what was once satisfying is no longer satisfying, how do i continue to take strides forward?? in the biggest search to find what will motivate and satisfy me