day 1922 – scholarship

grandmaster handed out scholarship to a few of us at the annual celebration party. it’s his way of encouraging us to take the next blackbelt test. to be frank, this amount covers only a small portion of the large sum. i’m not sure where i sit with this decision because it doesn’t necessarily change anything for me. there’s many reasons i don’t need it, but also many reasons to just do it. i’ll give it a little more thought over the course of the next month and see what type of commitment it requires

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day 660 – going all in

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it’s all or nothing, like gambling at the casino. the only difference is i am in total control of the outcome. i think i give myself too much pressure cause i have my own standards and cannot afford to lose. i’d be performing not only in front of the grandmaster, the instructors that’s taught me from the very beginning, but also the students that i have been teaching. saved up all my scholarships so i could use it altogether at times like this. saying goodbye to all the awards, now i am feeling poor all over again but at least i am using it for something worthwhile

day 319 – in addition

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suppose this would make up for the past few weeks of low, when i am running out of patience with the complete breakdown of my knee. would feel much better if i could actually perform when receiving this. hope once i can get my leg back in working form that i will be able to live up to expectations and do many more great things

day 6 – renewing membership

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time to use my accumulated scholarships to cut down the cost of membership renewal fees. all the appreciation awards, stars of the month, mvp scholarships i have amassed over the past couple years are now gone and have to start collecting and earning these scholarships all over again