day 2362 – tricks and kicks

i’ve, for the longest time, avoided training kicks at tricking because i’m really scared to find out i won’t be able to kick ever again. ever since i found out the real truth about my ankle, i’ve been really down just thinking how much that will affect all the things i love to do. i’ve since learnt that i will still be able to train certain things back if i rehab it properly. i want to make it a priority to rehab properly and train kicks because it’s quite unacceptable if i don’t have some kicks. i started with cheat 720 and backside 900 tonight and i’ll keep drilling it until i get them

day 2309 – mri results

i think shocked wouldn’t even be the correct term to describe myself after finding out the mri results. i’m pretty shaken that my ankle ligament is completely torn. it didn’t really hit me on the spot, but as the day went on and i digested this news, i’m feeling pretty discouraged and utmost concerned. it strikes me that i will forever not have this ligament and it will never heal itself. if not treated, i will have no chance of being able to do all that i love doing – my sports career will be changed and limited forever. i had some chats with doctors and friends, hoping to get their thoughts and views on it because i clearly couldn’t keep my head above water

day 2292 – gutsy testing

img_20200124_1549582392730685212064989.jpghonest to god i was super scared when i made the call to test my stupid foot, but also super excited to be on the platform. my workout got amended to only what my body can manage now. the first part was mainly accessory exercise for back and traps. i did get to work on some light snatch variations later on. i wouldn’t say it didn’t hurt because it did a bit. it’s humbling that after two weeks of bed rest and inactivity, i’ve lost a lot of strength. i’m hoping the muscle memory is there and will come back to me quick. either way, i’m just happy to be back doing some form of olympic lifting

day 1897 – first front

i landed so many good ones on the blue today so decided today was the day to take it to the floor. i fell on my butt so many times before eventually landing one on the floor for the very first time. it was by no means pretty, but i’ll keep working on it to clean it up. it was a really big step out of my comfort zone, but i now know how it feels on the floor. i’m very grateful for the support i’ve received even when it wasn’t working. without their encouragement, i wouldn’t have had the opportunity or confidence to attempt it on the floor. this will be the first of many

day 1535 – office revolution 


made it into the office today and good to know that i was missed. it’s made official the main renderer has resigned, leaving me as the only renderer. my manager told me i am the front runner to step up into the role and be the next one. i’m extremely excited for the opportunity presented because it’s what i wanted. i’m scared that the bigger responsibilities may expand multi-fold and must learn the new programs with no support. it’s daunting just thinking about it, but it’s within my power to take, learn and grow into being something much bigger. afterall, my manager has the confidence in me and said i’ll go as far as i’m willing to

day 854 – hotspot for hotpot

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turning another page of the calendar, to a month i don’t want to welcome. i knew way back that this day was going to arrive, but i was in denial all along. i was scared because every waking second is ticking away and inching closer to your inevitable leaving. every now and then i wish time would slow down just so it can prolong the time we have left together. i really do feel special that we get some alone time to have dinner out in the handful of days you have remaining. know that it’s a rare occasion to expand my unchartered food territory cause i only do this for you