day 2457 – whiskey hazelnut

earnest is a luxury that i save only to indulge as a reward. i had a rather rough week coping internally, especially in training. whenever there’s any sign of improvement in my knee, a setback happens like excessive inflammation during drills or walking into a car. what made me content is that even though things didn’t go well, i kept up with the training. it’s important to keep drilling, but it’s equally important to accept that some things may not be at it’s best and that’s when i can work on other skills

day 2432 – garage gym

starting the new home workout program because covid situation is forcing apex to change. i still get to go in once a week, but the home workout program is tailored to a lot of technical work. it was rough on my grip and forearm because i’m not used to the diameter of the men’s barbell and a lot of the drills starts from hang position. i’m told i can use straps next time to save my forearms and get. i finally got a chance to use the plyo boxes i built a while back

day 2409 – taegeuk practice

third and last scheduled poomsae for all the bc championship competitors. i must admit these seven hours shifts with the extra training is one of the roughest saturdays. all the competitors have improved a lot since the first training, but i’m still feeling uneasy about a few. this was suppose to be the last session, but i think i’ll need to hold one more for my own peace of mind

day 2369 – federer comeback

it was pretty hard to watch this match as it wore on; probably one of the hardest federer matches i’ve ever watch him play. i could see federer’s movements are compromised and i know he was feeling lots of discomfort but still playing relentlessly until the end. his amazing efforts coming back to win a five setter. i would sacrifice my sleep any day to watch his play. it was the first time i went live on instagram so a friend without cable could watch the end of the match

day 2284 – inflammable

both my ankles started to swell up hours after my prp treatment, the right one more so than the left. i couldn’t move it up or down and i felt the internal battle and the pain within my bloodstream. the spots were tender from the needle injections and the area was burning hot. needless to say, i had a very rough and restless night because the pain was so much. i’ve never had it so bad that thoughts of amputation crept into my mind. i literally crawled to get tylenol hoping to catch some shut eye

day 2244 – increased volume

the newest squat assignment is increased volume with slightly lowered weight. i went in thinking it’d be okay since the weight went down by ten, but turns out to be really tough. i pushed through and finished it but immediately had regrets. my legs were shaking even before i was done my whole workout. i tried to roll, stretch, roll some more and stretch some more to help my case. right off the bat i knew i was in trouble for tomorrow where i have a fully loaded day of flipping, dodgeball then hockey. all i can do is pray because i’m in for a rough ride tomorrow

day 2231 – nacho game

this team of white girls was not only huge, they were also fiesty. thankful no injuries resulted from any of the rough plays. i got an elbow to the head, shoved away in front of my own net and countless chops to the stick. i laid out a big hit, unfortunately it was to my own teammate when we were both rushing towards the puck at the blue line. we drew first blood but they tied it in the third. luckily it ended in a tie game even after a frantic overtime

2093 – bored

the journey has been quite rough the last little while, mainly referring to the work aspect. sometimes i just feel so unfulfilled at work these days because the waiting game continues. my kits collection rendering is delayed because the sketchup vray license is having issues. as a result, i’m killing time just doing floor plan conversions until the korean brothers can get it working again. i’m just trying to get through the week in one piece

day 1379 – icbc rehab

img_20200204_1532211689043998011456866.jpgthe bad just got worse and now i’m put on a long chiro rehab program through icbc. the quality of life is just not there at the moment and i really want to give up. there’s no comfortable position between sitting, standing and laying down; basic mobility is compromised to the point where the pain keeps me from sleeping. it’s been a horrid week sleep deprived, not being able to go to gym, not playing sports like normal, not able to be myself. it’s asking for too much from me when i have reduce some of my physical activities and even hold off in some cases. i try not appear in pain but even staying strong has its limits and i’ve reached it. i don’t know if restricting all my sports is easier or death

day 1339 – lift myself

this week has been real rough fighting so much distractions. made it to the end of the work week and lucky to be still in one piece. the take back for this week is how to be one of the pillar for my family when called upon. many things have been limited if not put on hold; i haven’t been to the gym as often as i usually do. many things have backtracked and dropped much strength but good to know i still can pick up myself, literally