day 946 – nothingness

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did absolutely nothing besides sleep, eat and more sleep. i don’t recall what i ate today but even if i did, it probably had no flavour to it. life is outright boring when i can’t be myself and function like always. time passes by a lot slower when i am not having any fun. i know it’s only been three days, but my body truly believes it’s been rotting for three weeks. i think i am going to try to hit the gym tomorrow regardless, unless i collapse before i make it there

day 882 – sedentary

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not quite sure what i did to my calf, but one was hurting so much i could barely walk down the stairs. stayed home all day and barely had any activity, my fitbit probably thought i was dead. at last i couldn’t take it anymore and had to go out to the gym because i felt trapped and uninspired. since i wasn’t very mobile, the decision probably didn’t make sense to many, but it did for me. i felt both my brain and my body were rotting at home and needed the boost – surely it must be signs of gym withdrawal