day 2271 – out of reach

i once wrote this list of things i wanted to drill and moves that i want to have. it was something i needed to keep myself accountable while chasing these moves, but none of this is happening and not sure if i’ll ever be able to get back to drilling anything. honest to god, it’s really wearing on me and some days i cry myself to sleep knowing i may never be able to achieve any of these goals. i’m going to put up a fight, knowing so

day 1574 – surgeon visit 

fifth time into the clinic and fifth set of xrays, the radiologist has gotten to know me too well. hand specialist handed me some good news today that gave me a reason to smile and it wasn’t that my bone has grown back together cause the xrays are still ugly. in fact, he reiterates my bone will never be straight again, it will never appear as one piece, it may always have clicking inside, but he intends on making my thumb work again. my splint is trimmed down a little and i’m given the go ahead on certain things. it just means i now have less restrictions as to how often i need to wear it. the road is a little more clear now

day 730 – my bars

image

it’s exciting when my orders and packages keep coming in and this time it’s my much anticipated combat bars. with these stocked up in my drawer, i am ready for just about anything or so i would like to think. i could use a boost in training lately as there has been a lack of it. hope this restores my motivations and puts me back on track with the things i really need to do