day 2298 – room bound

sadly, i slept in and missed the raptors limited edition shoe launch. spent majority of the time at home and mostly in my room because i don’t want to get anyone in my family sick. it’s been a really weird and rough stretch for me the past few weeks. i’ve dealt with a foot injury where after six assessments by different physicians, the final diagnosis is still u determine to date. yet, i still am restricted to basically not do anything i usually do. i’m now trapped with this sickness tagged as bronchitis, but i also have a cold and both combined keeps me up coughing all night long, and gives me a headache when i’m not in bed

day 2296 – missing me

this is an extreme pessimism post because i’ve seriously had enough everything. there’s so much i miss about this. i miss being able to move without so much pain and limitations. i miss being the fittest, strongest and best shape of my life. i miss doing backflips, kicks and flips at will. i miss playing hockey and dodgeball with all my teammates. i miss the soreness that came after every lifting and training session. i miss being able to jump and climb onto anything i wanted to. i miss the summer sunshine and being outdoors until night. i miss doing everything i can’t do at the moment

day 1786 – thoracolumbar

img_20200204_190327344981603760484917.jpgnot how i had planned out my thursday. i had to leave work early, miss bootcamp and skip softball to visit my chiropractor. only then had i found out i injured my thoracolumbar junction. i’m in so much pain i couldn’t rotate, bend or reach. i wanted to continue with my sports, but there was really no range for that. of course, i tried to tape my own back and needed to prove it can be done. i struggled behind the mirror for over an hour before putting it with proper tension. only then i realized the jammed part of the vertebrae had a softball sized bruise

day 1381 – waking up

img_20200204_155355604508266693072772.jpgi am getting more irritated and more concerned waking up every morning feeling like a train hit me. i can’t move my neck to look down at the ground and cringe every time i need go bend over. these restrictions isn’t working for me and it’s only a matter of time before i explode. there’s so much i hate about my life at this point because it doesn’t allow me to move or play at will and i’m simply dying from gym withdrawal

day 1379 – icbc rehab

img_20200204_1532211689043998011456866.jpgthe bad just got worse and now i’m put on a long chiro rehab program through icbc. the quality of life is just not there at the moment and i really want to give up. there’s no comfortable position between sitting, standing and laying down; basic mobility is compromised to the point where the pain keeps me from sleeping. it’s been a horrid week sleep deprived, not being able to go to gym, not playing sports like normal, not able to be myself. it’s asking for too much from me when i have reduce some of my physical activities and even hold off in some cases. i try not appear in pain but even staying strong has its limits and i’ve reached it. i don’t know if restricting all my sports is easier or death

day 1364 – toasting 

img_20200204_1621288582902095855352102.jpgi can tell you such restricting diet sucks when all i really wanted today was a chocolate chip cookie. it’s times like this when i crave all the bad stuff that i consistently pry myself from anyways. i’ve had enough plain bread and blandness the past week. my first trial run of first real food was an egg and my treat of the day was pint sized chicken udon for dinner. people have been telling me i shrunk, and my face is noticeably paler, skinnier and look borderline unhealthy

day 1363 – robot war 

nine dodgeless days is over as robot war strikes. a simple game of dodgeball with player stat tracking to spark trade talks. the few twists to the rules but i’m ready to contribute to team doraemon. day three of liquid diet consisted of three slices of toasts and one banana; i’m surprised i still had energy in the tank to play. these restrictions suck and i would experience spurts of dizziness throughout the day