day 1919 – laid back

a laid back thursday of just work and work. though i say laid back, it’s still a eleven hour work day for me. i was pretty brain dead by the time tutor came around and wished i could forgo that i take a nap instead. i went to tutor as usual because i felt committed and owed it to the students. today was all about math because both sisters had a math test coming up

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day 1905 – backlogged

resuming daily work activities after three consecutive days locked away for training wasn’t exactly a gentle ease. not only do i have to tend to the excessive amount of emails, many project requests, prepare for conference call, but also had to look after the dishes. i uploaded one batch first thing in the morning, ran another load right away and to my dismay, there’s still people leaving dirty dishes in the sink while the dishwasher is perfectly empty. i spent pretty much all day catching up and didn’t even get around to doing any project work

day 1904 – pastimes

one of my long term past time is training for poomsae competitions. though it’s over a year since i stepped on the big stage, i still spend a great deal of time coaching competition. there were times when thought i was done with taekwondo, but every time i try to step away i somehow get pulled back in. the debate is do i still have one last one in me. after my mentor and friends departed, i no longer have as much drive as a competitor to shoulder all the responsibilities

day 1868 – vignette casegoods

checking out the crops of all the hardwork my team and i put into the best western vignette. very pleased with how everything turned out; a big sigh of relief not only because it’s completed, but completed correctly as i shoulder most of the responsibility. a little side tantrum i must release. sometimes when things turn out well, there’s no credit given. sometimes when things turn out well, there’s still complaints coming out of people

day 1700 – gr8 companies

walking from one gr8 company to another under the spitting rain. another case where i’ve taken the reins to manage more rendering requests and act as the direct contact to outsource renderer. slowly but surely taken more and more off my manager’s plate and onto my plate. the start of the year has been good to me, allowing me to manage my own team and managers developing me as part of the emerging leader trainings. being identified as one of the five emerging leaders is flattering. i think i’ve proven to many that i can handle many tasks under pressure and still maintain professionalism

due time

from the beginning of the calendar year, i have taken stride after strides in terms of personal growth. as per usual, i set some goals for myself, some more bold than normal. what stands out is how my work performance has changed and how much my role in the company has evolved. i’m grateful to be one of the five that my manager has identified to take on the emerging leaders coaching program. my manager has offloaded a lot of things onto my plate; it’s stressful but i’m proving i can handle all that. each time i prove myself capable, i gain more trust. i welcome all the new and bigger responsibilities because that’s the direction i want to move towards. while majority has been moving in the positive, there are some that’s lagging behind. some things aren’t coming by as easily as i had drawn out, and that’s consumed a bit of frustration over the last little while. i haven’t been seeing the results i thought i would have, but i am to be blamed for i haven’t put enough effort into that aspect. i do feel my discipline has slipped so i’ll need to tighten up in that regard. i’ve done some self evaluation and i’m going to keep going because i’m a believer that it’s only a matter of time before i start achieving. i may appear to have it all down pat in other’s eyes, but to me, i set the bar high for myself and i’m far from where i want to be. being my harshest critic is who i usually am and that only means i have nowhere to go but up

day 1693 – say no

i dreamt that i was really stressed at work and turns out i had a good reason to. three of my tech members were away or sick. it’s irritating when one of then has been missing a lot of time giving reasons like slept in, migraine, stomachache or lung disease. it bugs me how low their threshold is, to call in sick so hastily and so often. i, too, am in quite some discomfort, but here i am at work responsible and trying to get some things done