resolution series: [thirty] save up

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often when the the topic of saving comes up, everyone immediately thinks of the bling. but sometimes you have to look at a broader picture of wealth. by definition, wealth means assets; it does not only come in money value, but also comes in knowledge and experience that you possess and the quality of people that surround you. i consider my family an asset, for they are who have raised me, who taught me everything i know and gave me everything i have. i share all my past with them and they do the same with me. the amount of support i receive from them over the years is immeasurable and cannot be calculated in any currency. friends is another asset, because they are who you grow up with, learn from and play alongside. together, we shared countless memories that no one can take away from us. and then of course there’s the financial side of wealth, which unfortunately no one can live without. to save up is to make sure you retain those valuable connections with family, friends, teammates and soul mates. for those you want to continue growing old with, treat them well and take care of the relationships you don’t want to go without. being successful starts now, in planning ahead and building up for the future in all aspects including people. every small increment will grow and over time and will add up over time

…and that concludes my resolution series. hope you found it enjoyable to read as much as i enjoyed writing it

resolution series: [twentynine] walk away

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you can say life is both long and short. how much you get out of it is entirely up to you because you are in the driver’s seat controlling the wheel and choosing your path. the shotgun may have inputs on which route to take and passengers may try to initiate backseat driving, but in the end, you are steering the wheel and that’s what matters most. somehow i find an amusement park resembles a person’s life at different stages of life. each day is very much like a ferris wheel; there’s a routine and certain tasks you must complete and once that cycles one round, you get up and do it all over again. and then there’s a roller coaster where it takes much time to build up and then go from absolute high to the uttermost low in a matter of seconds, or milliseconds. the hardest part of life is living a life doing things you hate doing. makes waking up every morning that much harder than it already is. it’s time i learn to step away from the things i dread doing and concentrate on striving for the things i like. maybe a change is in order to leave behind the load of what isn’t my responsibility and pursue what i am passionate about. in the end it is taking the good out of the grand scheme of things and making the most out of what you can, not what you are given. if you don’t like what are you doing, don’t follow blindly, walk away and choose your own destiny

resolution series: [twentyeight] pity

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everyone has their own problems to deal with, some less complex than others. there’s no secret that i have been plagued with endless injuries throughout my life. i have given up on trying to hide that, because i have learned that patchwork only makes it go away on the superficial level. unfortunately that’s just temporary fix and will keep piling on to account for greater problems. i simply cannot live without the sports and activities which i play, for it is the passion of my life. it won’t be forever, but it is my choice to continue playing and practicing them for as long as i can manage. i do intend on doing everything i can within my powers to do my rehab and maintenance work. my main focus is on getting better and stronger every single day; always be a better version of myself. don’t question my will to strive for what i want just because you have it easier. don’t question my passion to always stay hungry and carry on even when nothing goes my way. don’t question how big my heart is when you don’t know how much pain i have endured. don’t question my toughness if you don’t know what i experienced because very few people have a clue how much work, time, energy and commitment i put into making all this possible. standing on my own two feet was never a given to me, but i learn to be grateful for all the times i can. sometimes i sit alone thinking to myself i don’t deserve to be dealing with all these mishaps and i certainly don’t deserve your bashing or judgement. i need not your pity nor your approval for what i have to go through as i result of what i do. i was given this life and these obstacles because i could handle it. i appreciate those who’s helped me out along the way, it’s meant the world to me. if you have nothing good to say, don’t speak

resolution series: [twentyseven] tour

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those of the previous generations often say travel when you are young because you have the freedom of time and the luxury of energy to do so. but incoveniently, it is also the time when you haven’t got your money issues all figured out so every penny counts. but once u get past the livelihood stage, it’s time to settle down and form a family. the increased responsibilities will in turn make you feel tied down, not to mention increased expenses of all your dependents. and then when you wait another two decades to establish yourself in the work force, you haven’t got the energy to do the traveling you have always imagined. my conclusion is there’s no best time to travel because there’s give and takes at every stage in life, all you can is follow your gut feeling and travel when your heart desires. can’t say i have been to many places, but can’t say that i haven’t been to many places either. i have definitely been well travelled within north america, but have not set foot in europe or south america. there is so many fascinating cities waiting for me, i have to go out there and see the world for myself. i could definitely use some time off now because i am currently physically, mentally and psychologically drained and stressed out in every dimension

resolution series: [twentysix] no control

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in the teens, very rarely if ever, have we had to worry about what happens beyond the current year. but once the twenties hits, everything starts to change and our minds start spinning faster than ever. so many questions begin to pop up, yet we seem to have no answer or solution to any of them. at this point in life there are so many uncertainties as to what one’s future holds. even though there may be ideas of where our interest lies and what our strengths and weaknesses are, but still tons of undetermined factors that has everything to do with our career paths and relationship statuses. being a person that loves to plan for schedules and have structured timelines, i strive to have concrete ideas and solid plans of what i will be doing and where i will be headed. i dislike ambiguity so i need to do my share of planning, so everything seems clearer than clear. to be honest, it really bugs me not knowing what the my future holds but there seems to be very little i can do about it at this point in time. sometimes i feel like i am a control freak on my own life, and i am slowly but surely learning to ease off and enjoy the moment at hand. i will just have to take it one step at a time and and wait for each step and each stage of life to unfold in front of me

resolution series: [twentyfive] quarter life

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each year there are many birthdays to celebrate, my mom, dad, brother, friends, coworkers, and of course my own. each and every year as it gets closer to my birthday, i start to feel a little more stressed knowing time is passing me by quicker than i can imagine. it scares me watching the time go by so fast and soon i will be at another stage in life. but before then there’s a lot more other things to worry about. for instance, school is up, what’s next?? what will my future hold, how will my career turn out, what will my relationship status be, how will i be able to cope with all these changes?? so many questions and so many unanswered questions waiting to be answered. in school we were given answer keys to determine whether we have the right or wrong answers; in life, that’s rarely the case. at this point in life, there are so many open ended questions and little knowledge of where to find the answers. this is when quarter life crisis kicks in and gets the best of us. i am no master at dealing with this, as i, myself, am still trying to figure things out. all i can say is take life as it is given, things start off with lots of uncertainties, but as time goes by, it will start to clear up. i’ve always been told everything will be okay in the end; if it’s not okay, its not the end.

resolution series: [twentyfour] bad habits

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it’s one of those unexplained phenomena why most girls always take pictures of their food before devouring them. i guess for me i like to document things and have variety of pictures available for blogging. i don’t know how to stop having food cravings at the most random times. one thing on my to do list is to limit the amount of eating out and consumption of unnecessary crap because it is hard to control my digestive system. and speaking of digestive system, there’s been some ongoing issues with mine that i have yet to find reason or solution to, all i know is it is very sensitive and gets upset for no good reason. also wish that i could get rid of that peculiar food craving and stop eating junk at the most inopportune times. i have this terrible habit like the sudden urge to have chocolate, ice cream, cookies, chips and all sorts of unhealthy snacks you can possibly think of. fortunately i am not a big fan of desserts, especially the white desserts and pastries like cupcakes, brownies, mousse cakes etc, but i do like my fair share of asian snacks. with all that said, my top priority is cleaning up my eating, control my cravings and intake to ensure that i do not mess up my already messed up digestive system. maybe once that gets under control, then i can pinpoint what is going on with my stomach

resolution series: [twentythree] progress

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no one is perfect, but everyone is working towards being the best they can be. twelve years ago, when i first stepped foot in my physiotherapist’s clinic, i had no idea it would be such a long journey full of changes and learning curves. from a girl who couldn’t do a single exercise given to me no matter how basic. from a girl who wouldn’t put any effort into trying to do the exercises no matter what was assigned. to a girl who can now do all that plus weights and equipment thrown at me for different variations and increased difficulty. at that time, i bet my kinesiologists were very frustrated with me and wondered what was wrong with this girl because i didn’t put any effort in trying to complete any exercises they asked of me. through the years, they have opened my eyes to a whole new world, making me understand why i had to do what i was told. slowly i began to listen and understand how my body works and what i need to do for it. taekwondo didn’t start off easy for me, i went through some rough patches and stretches were i wasn’t feeling it. i wasn’t trying hard, i let things slip under the rug but gladly someone pulled me aside to let me know that half-assing wasn’t acceptable. he woke me up by telling me i shouldn’t settle for anything less for my best and never play down to my classmates’ level. if it weren’t for that lecture, i was probably ready to call it quits and would never have made it this far. i can safely say that there are many things that didn’t start off well but turned out well because someone out there decided to take it upon themselves to make me understand the importance of putting in the work and effort. ever since then, i have taken big strides in the right direction and to make the necessary progress

resolution series: [twentytwo] mentor

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the people i have been surrounded by have played a tremendous role in shaping me for who i am. they provided me with much guidance, endless advice and mentorship that influenced my growth as a human being. i have had many people guiding and pushing me every step of the way, either dragging me back on track whenever i stray away or making sure i don’t slack off when i shouldn’t be. i know for a fact, without the team behind the scenes attending to me when i fall apart, i probably wouldn’t be walking today. they have constantly given me motivations to train harder and train smarter to get better and get stronger. it is through them i learned that i must put in the work and work for what i want in order to continue playing the sports of my life. the coaches and teammates i’ve had the privilege of playing with and learning from also played a significant role. they have taught me the true meaning of teamwork, that we ought to work hard for each other. lots of credit goes to the instructors that inspired me and showed me to way to higher ground. i have come a long way from the beginning of my taekwondo journey, but i won’t stop knowing there’s still a long way to go to get to a level i never imagined i could be at. i am hoping one day i would be looked up upon, to be mentoring and inspiring others to become what they could never have imagined

 

resolution series: [twentyone] believe

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trust your heart and go with your instincts, it usually doesn’t lie. until you do what your heart desires, you will not live life to its fullest potential. belief is an important thing to develop because if you do not believe in yourself, who do you expect to believe in you?? i always followed the saying “if you believe in what you are doing, don’t let anyone stop you.” even if it means the rest of the world is against what you are about to do. that is precisely what i have been doing for many years and counting. even when everyone bade me to stop all that i do, i still do it because my heart wanted to and it felt that i could handle it. i was not prepared to give up tennis, taekwondo, dodgdeball, basketball for knitting or orgami. that isn’t my style and wouldn’t give me the satisfaction in life worth striving for. as a result each and every time i go out to compete, i go out with intent thinking of everything i have to prove. confidence has always been a weak spot because i don’t like spotlight. over the years, slowly but surely i am learning that it’s okay to make mistake cause i am not superman. just remember to trust my stuff, just go out there and give it my all. regardless of the outcome, i did the best i could. if there’s a will, there’s a way