day 1540 – remote access

it looks like a battle of laptops, but i’m actually remotely accessing my work computer through the network. i have been granted permission to work at home on selected days to accommodate the hardship of the commute and discomfort of my ailing hand. people should trust and respect that i’m trying my best not to disrupt the work flow. i could easily take the days off and leave my team with my work, but i’m not the irresponsible type. it’s tough that i have a dysfunctional hand and must miss all my physical activities. beyond that, what kills me is knowing and then losing hope that my stuff is at all important. why am i so dumb repeating myself more than twice thinking it’ll stick

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day 1300 – less sensation

it was a bad ending to a monday night aggravating my hip at dodgeball shortly after having pulled it at taekwondo. i went home the whole way not having sensation in my right leg from my hip down; not a feeling i’ve ever felt. my night has been rounds of ice, heat and patch repeat. i can’t get my mind off two things: what happens with my competition and can i play my games this week. i’m doing lots to make it go away

林奕匡 – 一雙手

a song that’s been looping endlessly especially when i’m at loss of words. sometimes i think i have found what i’m looking for, i have what i want, and then those thoughts vanish. these thoughts leave me hanging and instills a lot of self doubt. lately i’m feeling a little upset at myself and i’m trying hard not to let that to spill over to others. this song resonates for me; it gives me a boost and a reason to continue even when i’m uncertain

周柏豪 – 天光

been replaying this song countless times during my drives. thought the tune was quite catchy especially the chorus section which keeps me awake hence it deserves notable mention. its one of those songs that kind of sticks in your head for no reason and occasionally want to jam along. unlike the others that top my playlist, the lyric matters much less because the tune tempo makes up for it

吳浩康 – 擇日失戀

skyrocketed in my hit list rating lately, one of my current favourite song during my car ride that’s been on repeat for the past couple months. really like his songs both the tunes and the lyrics. although the song title “breakup” and the lyrics sounds utterly pessimistic, i actually don’t get that feeling when i listen to it

day 253 – rest phase

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stayed away from what’s been causing my stress and dissatisfaction for a couple days and it never seems to be enough and time to get back to it tomorrow. hopefully my mind and body can work as one to resume progressing optimally. don’t blame me if i accidentally let it out on someone, because that someone has been obviously been crossing the line recently