day 2170 – road less taken

the tears that rolled uncontrollably down my face was a direct reflection of how i felt inside. as much as i wanted to stop myself in front of people, i simply couldn’t stop the tears from coming down. so much stress has built up around work, taekwondo, people and health that my emotional and physical state are torn inside and outside. all my life i feel i’ve been cheated because i never had the privilege of having the health most people enjoy. still, i push through and train through all my injuries, overcoming one after another. this time is no different, but four months is too long to go through without having a proper diagnosis and method of treatment. no doubt i’m feeling frustrated from the hopelessness

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hustling 2019

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2018 was demanding for it was intertwined with many accomplishments and disappointments that brought forth many mixed emotions. i can’t deny i had stretched myself too thin more times than i’d like, and the year had flown by before i knew it. i was overloaded at work where i experienced many influxes of workload; but through that, i had earned my stripes and established myself as a lead. outside of work, my play was also action-packed. i took a step back from taekwondo, but have the intention to step back in once my tricks and flips are ready. i wouldn’t say i had a particularly healthy year; not having escaped the injuries – this time being my shoulder. i lost sight of my fitness at times, but still kept it within reason. with all the successes and setbacks of the past twelve months, i had a lot of take backs knowing i had grown and proved that i could handle myself in uncomfortable situations. looking ahead, 2019 will be a year of hustle where i’ll be chasing some pretty ambitious goals i had set for myself. again, i expect myself to continue grinding and hustling for everything i’ve always wanted. i’m committed to investing the next three hundred and sixty five days to become the best version of myself

i experienced the best and worst of days in 2018, but nothing i couldn’t overcome. the darkest moments stung and the brightest moments shone, but above all, i managed to stay afloat. as 2018 departs, i’m looking ahead and expecting a lot out of myself in 2019

  • get healthy and stay injury-free #gethealthystayhealthy
  • consistent training #leanmachine
  • proper eating #eatsmart
  • love myself for who i am #selfcare
  • love my family #familymatters
  • reconnect with friends #circleoffriends
  • savings and assets #budgetlife
  • explore and travel the world #roamtheplanet
  • more me time for what sets my heart on fire #metimemovement
  • career advancement #careerdevelopment
  • step back onto the mat #roadtonationals
  • setting my priorities #prioritiesincheck
  • learn or take up new skills and knowledge #foreverlearning

i’m ready to make some gains and get the best out of what 2019 has in store. it’ll be one heck of a ride as i’m on a mission to find my strong

30 share it [ten]

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back at home with a hot shower and just chilling with the need to do some reflection. thanks to chiropractor on site for putting my two ribs back into place so i can play my games today. i wasn’t hallucinating nor exaggerating when i complained my back and neck was out but of course i can only say so much before i realize it’s pointless. i’ve decided on a few things so i don’t get unnecessarily hurt

day 989 – date night

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a nice sumptuous dinner and night out in the neighbourhood for reaching our first little milestone together. having connections really does help; hooked ourselves up with some good fusion tapas at torafuku. the restaurant is not located in a prominent area, the decor does not wow anyone with its interior, but eaters are drawn to focus on the flavour and essence of the food. it’s been one heck of a month and i only look forward to all the times we’ll share and all the memories we’ll create

day 929 – resurrect

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tomorrow i am going to get some me time to reboot both my mind and my system. i feel i need some time to regroup and make sure i’m back on track doing things i need to be doing and doing things i enjoy doing, for the right reasons. the past week or two has been lousy where i am just going through everything mindlessly like a robot but not thinking twice about what i am seeking out of it. and during this time, there’s either been a lot of emotional eating or unhealthy thoughts and choices made. i really should put things back into it’s proper routine and get back in the right frame of mind to make the best choices for myself moving forward. february is a short month, so better not waste time and get back on track as soon as i possibly can

day 877 – christmas homecooking

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enjoying a homemade dinner feast on christmas day. the food on the table shows my family has some proven chefs, and that’s not me, cause all i did was toss the salad. festive seasons like this reminds me that i am truly blessed with the people i am surrounded by, for all these people listen and help me through my many troubles and insecurities. but none more so, than those that share the tong genes, for they work tirelessly to guide me through no matter the situation. my life wouldn’t be the same without any one of you out there and tis the season to reflect and be thankful for all that i have. let it be known that each and every one of you have a place in my heart

louder than words

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i am beginning to fully understand what nike means when they say just do it. as my birthday approaches and soon i turn another year older, it’s one of those reflective moments where i look back and think of what i need to improve upon. all this time, there are many things i want to do and need to do but couldn’t do. in the past, i have put a lot of emphasis in thinking and planning for it but very seldom have i followed through with actions. it certainly took a lot longer than i would have liked but it’s never too late to understand; and i can’t be more happy to feel that things are starting to click inside my mind. knowing so, my mind and body must work together in order to make things happen and make changes towards my goals. it is time to search from within and find that power to will myself to put words into action. learning to take one thing at a time. actions speak louder than words so just go out there and prove it