day 1866 – sloppiness

spent time running through some basic kicks and then taeguek 1 all the way to taebaek. i’ve realized too much devotion to instructing as taken away from practicing and bettering my own skills. i can’t remember the last time i did a poomsae or kicks for real. i feel utterly rusty and even disgusted with how sloppy its become. i need to dust of all that rust and keep up with my own practice. as an instructor and a competitor, it would be a disgrace to lose all that proficiency i once trained really hard for. it’s only fair i continue to practice as i expect my students to do the same

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day 1854 – treadmill trek

walking through the woods and running through the city while watching federer play the game he knows best. a rare day in the gym without doing squats or any barbell related exercises. i don’t usually do cardio at the gym aside from warmup, but i had to try out their new treadmills with these cool features. i didn’t do any compound movements, but it was enough to know that my shoulder is still nowhere near normal functions. all i wanted to do was insert myself back into some activities

day 1750 – suspending

that time playing on friend’s rings trying calisthenic moves while waiting for our carpool. i still remember we met up at midnight to do a red eye drive down to portland competition. the good old times when i am still active in the competition world, training and coaching at the same time. those days are gone and i no longer have the same competition goals anymore; maybe i finally realize it’s time to let go so my broken body won’t get anymore broken

day 1375 – over it

these things inadvertently keep me up at night. it’s been in the back of my mind recently and today put me over the top. perhaps i’m emotionally tired from tylenoling myself for the three jammed ribs. one thing i’ve set on is giving up on expectations of certain things if the importance was never placed to begin with. i don’t feel the same and i’m frustrated, but at the same time indifferent because i’m not about to press for something that cannot be attained. i’ve learned it was never there for me and if it mattered it’d stick

2016 year at glance

a look back at the highlights and lowlights of the past 365 days captivated by my carl zeiss lens. a lot has happened and all these snapshots are like puzzle pieces that write my story. 2016 was a year soul searching, a year of adventure and a year of realization. life was pretty grim at times; but it’s how i overcame these hurdles that sets me apart from who i was before. i’ve worked hard and learned a lot about myself and the others around me. i learned that sometimes i need to be selfish because i didn’t love myself for who i was. i learned to carry my own weight. i finally broke out from a plateau and figured out some things; things are starting to click and showing signs of progression. i am excited for the turn of the calendar year because 2017 will be a year of building upon what i have achieved and want to achieve. i’m more than ready to make the necessary adaptations to become the best version of myself and i want my dearests to be there by my side

day 950 – monday hustle

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monday stats are usually outrageous, today was no different despite barely regaining my normal capacity. if asked, at the beginning of today, if i could have achieved these numbers by the end of the day, i would have thought that was a preposterously impossible. in fact i was just aiming to make it through training and dodgeball without collapsing. it feels amazing my output was far beyond what my mind thought i could muster. i’m glad i was pushed to work my butt off and make that stats line. i’ll feel the effects tomorrow but it’s definitely worth every ounce of sweat and effort put forth today

welcoming 2016

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2015 was a good year in the grand scheme of things. through the past year, i have learned a lot about myself and have a better grasp of what i want to attain and where i want to go. i realized my true ambitious self of not wanting to remain at the same level time after time, year after year. there was definitely not as much action as i would like in terms of taekwondo competitions, but sometimes fate and timing has a lot to do with it. continuing to be involved in the dodgeball community not only in vancouver, but expanded my team to richmond. there’s no surprise i remain injury-proned; but the frequency as well as the ability to heal myself has gotten progressively better. i cannot express how blessed i am to have met so many supportive people in my life that always lends a hand or provides motivational words so i can stay on track even when times get tough

here’s to welcoming 2016 with open arms with set goals and big ambitions to take everything to the next level. let’s write the next 365 days and make it a year to remember.

  • stay as injury-free as possible
  • eat clean, sleep earlier, train regularly
  • take on big challenges even if i am scared, that’s the only way to get to the next level
  • be more confident and less self-doubting
  • love myself, my family and my friends just the way we are
  • learn a new sport
  • pick up snowboarding
  • learn to code, write my website
  • complete obstacle courses
  • travel the world

i am ready to take on all these challenges. find my strong. it’s now or never