day 2400 – parking lot

leaving the office just shy of five and the lot is empty. if anyone ever questions whether i have enough hours for the compressed work week, they should probably question twenty others first. it gets me so frustrated when micro-managing becomes a thing especially when someone’s just trying to mind their own business and get work done. it also bugs me that the high salary goes to waste on things like this

day 1917 – red feather

a meeting was called to discuss about red feathers and how it went down. red feathers wasn’t exactly an easy project to to work on, nor was it one that people wanted to stick their hands in. what bugs me most is one person kept sticking her nose into things and stirring the pot. there’ll always be people who choose to point fingers, but i’m hopeful there’s enough that wants to solve the problem

day 1890 – parking inadequacy

don’t tell me richmond has flooded into vancouver. there’s more and more inadequate drivers and parkers these days it makes me nervous not being able to trust that they are capable of sharing the roads. i don’t know if this park job is intentional, but i really should have parked even closer to make a statement. these drivers are needed on the road for the safety of other drivers

day 1693 – say no

i dreamt that i was really stressed at work and turns out i had a good reason to. three of my tech members were away or sick. it’s irritating when one of then has been missing a lot of time giving reasons like slept in, migraine, stomachache or lung disease. it bugs me how low their threshold is, to call in sick so hastily and so often. i, too, am in quite some discomfort, but here i am at work responsible and trying to get some things done

day 1648 – equipment haul

img_20200130_2256414440097618375832723.jpgjust twelve hours later lugging my hockey bag out of killarney, i’m walking into the community centre again, this time with me a bunch of taekwondo equipment. getting back into the thick of teaching isn’t so bad if i didn’t have to deal with a crazy mother who doesn’t think like a regular human. like i’ve said a hundred times and will say again and again; if u’re in it for the belt, u’re in the wrong place cuz i don’t just sell them. it’d save both my time and her money if i just directed her to a martial art store

day 1498 – hiatus

having a hard time accepting the point it’s gotten to and where it’s headed. the hiatus must be changed because i feel it has regressed. i’m not going to settle for less because satisfactory just doesn’t cut it. when asked what i’m getting in return from all my sacrifices, i really couldn’t answer. now that i think about it, i’ve sacrificed myself too much without really much in return just because i let my limits be pushed. the accumulated frustration of neglected feelings and my well-being is tarting to show and i hate to think that i’m only called upon when i can be of benefit. i was warned that i’ll reach the point of snapping when i’m fed up with the one-sidedness

day 852 – student appreciation

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students showing me some love bringing me an early christmas gift. these are constant reminders of why i continue to teach and coach even when i am outright exhausted. seeing my students work hard, improve and achieve is the greatest reward an instructor can have. i do take pride in seeing all that happen before my eyes. there will be times when i will rant about teaching, but sometimes i feel like i am too attached to let go of it