day 1142 – leisure reading

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slowly but surely my back is able to lift a little more with a little less pain. i’ve been pushing and testing the water for the past two weeks and now i’m almost back to my normal weights. still have to stay away from some lifts and movements until my range increases, but something is better than nothing. my limbs are fatigued but very happy with what my body will allow me to do. getting a head start on the presents i received from mo. he knows my interest within sports and my preference for leisure reading. doms already hit me; i’ll sit back and enjoy my new toys while my legs continue to tear itself apart

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take no excuses

image my leg was burning and could not muster¬†another rep so i turned to my kinesiologist and said i am exhausted. he in turn stared at me with little compassion and told me i must tank it and keep going no matter what my body feels. every now and then, he would look over to check on me and tell me not to slack off because he knows me far too well. over the many years, the kins that worked with me knows exactly what i do to get out of doing things i consider difficult. i guess i have developed a slacker reputation and one that will stick with me for as long as i live. they no longer concede to any of my excuses or complaints because know that i give up too easily and only stay within my comfort zone. in other words, unless i puke, faint or die on the spot, i must keep going because he isn’t decreasing the reps or weight. and in at the end i survived it all and knew i had done something right for once. he told me he believed i was strong enough and forced me to find a way to tough it out, all i needed was a push. i’ll take that compliment with me and think about it at home. he also said that training is meant to be hard so to push me to my limit because it’s all about overcoming weaknesses. if the training was easy, i would be cheating myself. thankfully he hadn’t conceded to my whining otherwise i would have taken the easy way out for the two hundred thousandths time

day 416 – pistol squat

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stuck around after class to attempt my first pistol squat since terribly messing up my knee. a little shaky and not in the best form but all is good when i was able to do a few without experiencing pain. it took me quite a while to train for this and certainly involved a lot of pushing and still only able to complete it on my right, but still work in progress. thank you for making it possible even though i said it wasn’t possible and you single handedly erased my doubts. i am glad i can still maintain this ability even having not done it in over a month, never want to lose it

day 108 – don’t let my mind go astray

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after shutting the world out of my life for twelve hours, thinking long and hard about my many misfortunes. i have no answer for all the things i cannot control, but i have come to conclusion that i will only work harder to achieve what i thought i never could and push beyond my limits. afterall, i would not be me if i had given up so easily