day 1502 – autopilot 

no more autopilot moving forward because i’ve had enough of dormancy. made some ballsy moves just to make this happen; laying down a few protocols and making a few adjustments. i don’t like the way things are going and it’s about time i raise the bar for myself. i’m still struggling with pain in too many parts of my body but i’m taking painkillers everyday just so it gives me a chance to step it up. the harder it hurts, the more frustrated i get so the more i push. maybe that’s why its having snowballing effect

day 1258 – at the cage

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my legs are sore from yesterday’s workout, but also been a little too casual with the rolling and releases lately. my left knee is pretty banged up but onwards with my program regardless; hitting up a different location, but still hammering down on those same exercises. aside from the unusual tightness, i felt good and pushed through my routine with less difficulty

day 1168 – nailed it

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i felt good when i tested my back two days ago, so i’m going for more. i said i wanted to be back in the one plate club so i went and got it – without extra pain. i had to scale my activities and exercises down considerably for two months and was shut down from almost everything for the past three weeks, but i think i finally see the light again. i’m stoked to get back into the thick of things, but i’ll still take it step by step. also very pleased that my midterm was extremely well done, although there’s one mark i shouldn’t have lost

day 1083 – final stint

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i went in today with the mindset to finish on a strong note. it’s been a fixed routine for months – to come here and lift my heart out. it’s here i see myself make progress, see myself hit my goals and to see myself pushed harder than i would ever have. the bar is set high but everything was meant to be a stepping stone for the next. it won’t be the same without it; i’ll miss it here but i won’t stop working hard and climbing up. i’ll only set higher standards for myself and seek even greater goals. i learned never to say never

day 950 – monday hustle

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monday stats are usually outrageous, today was no different despite barely regaining my normal capacity. if asked, at the beginning of today, if i could have achieved these numbers by the end of the day, i would have thought that was a preposterously impossible. in fact i was just aiming to make it through training and dodgeball without collapsing. it feels amazing my output was far beyond what my mind thought i could muster. i’m glad i was pushed to work my butt off and make that stats line. i’ll feel the effects tomorrow but it’s definitely worth every ounce of sweat and effort put forth today

sunrun: an episode of character building

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for the past four months, i have been avoiding and stressing out over the sun run because it feels like a neverending marathon to me. today, i can sit here confidently and say that it’s a mission of character building and realization, and it’s a mission accomplished. i went into the race not knowing what to expect but i knew i had something to prove to all those doubters out there. i think the reason my kinesiologist has been giving me such a hard time and always doubting me so to provoke that competitiveness out of me and prove him wrong. even though i made the time that people said i couldn’t, i can’t help but feel some disappointment of not making the time i was secretly aiming for. but when i have crossed the finish line at the end of the run, and i still feel amazing as if i just ran a 5km race, that’s when i know i really should have pushed myself harder and made a better time. all in all, it was a good run in the books and i got myself respectable result, much credit goes to my running partner for not giving up on me. but more importantly, through all this, it was an episode of realization about my character that only made me a better person. when i said i would do something and set a goal for myself, i have to keep at it and never quit until i see the finish line. i may have to take back my statement about running not being my thing, because i think i will continue to strive for better time next time whenever it may be. this was all made possible because of all the doubters out there, my running partner and my kin who kept pushing me every step of the way and then keeping my body sane. my legs have never felt this good for the longest time and still feels good after the run, and that i am grateful for