day 1502 Рautopilot 

no more autopilot moving forward because i’ve had enough of dormancy. made some ballsy moves just to make this happen; laying down a few protocols and making a few adjustments. i don’t like the way things are going and it’s about time i raise the bar for myself. i’m still struggling with pain in too many parts of my body but i’m taking painkillers everyday just so it gives me a chance to step it up. the harder it hurts, the more frustrated i get so the more i push. maybe that’s why its having snowballing effect

day 1318 Рclubhouse 

practicing for queen’s tournament in this private clubhouse. my arm didn’t hold up for long before it went dead halfway through. good thing i’m going into my chiropractor tomorrow. thank goodness i made it to friday after feeling unwell for most of it. everyday since i returned from portland, with the exception of wednesday, has been a late night. i really need to set a protocol for my sleeping schedule because i don’t foresee my schedule slowing down this month