i was utterly concerned all night thinking i wouldn’t be able to walk like last time. knew more so, i was in despair that a simple hit on my ankle could cause the ganglion on my foot to flare up like such. i had to cancel my apex session in the morning, but still wanted to go forward with the garage lift because two others were banking on me. through the whole workout and the rest of the day, i was super grumpy thinking of all the problems it may have and all the limitations i may have to deal with. this isn’t good leading up to my birthday. even though it was friday where i should’ve earned my week end treat, i didn’t feel deserving of it and was in no mood to enjoy any
the thirty six hour whirlwind of text messages, calls and emails is finally over. i got the all important document that salvaged killarney classes for this weekend. even though it’s fixed in the nick of time, it doesn’t change the fact the business owner didn’t own up to his school and left me out on this insurance roller coaster. if i hadn’t personally reached out, none of the problem would never have been resolved. i’m learning as i go, but i’m also learning how much the grandmaster is willing to do for killarney. maybe it’s really time i start my own thing
recently each and every day is a mighty struggle because i am trapped in a battle against myself and within myself. regardless of what i go through, i try not to let problems surface and definitely don’t allow my mood to fluctuate. i never want my troubles to affect others because i am a strong and independent girl that ought to take care myself and not cause others to worry. truth is, i’ve been really troubled lately and i just don’t know what to do with myself. there are nights when i sit alone thinking about everything i am, everything i am not, and then eventually emotions get the better of me. sometimes i am uncertain what purpose i serve in society and why my existence even matters?? what exactly sets my heart on fire and where my passion lies?? this is a routine i would go through day in and day out, but so far i’ve come out empty handed majority of the time. every now and then, i would feel my strength as a person has been decreasing with every self destructing battle i fight. then i think to myself that life gave me those challenges because i am strong enough to live it. knowing nothing comes overnight, i can only carry on and stay positive that something will come along as long as i keep going. this is only one of the few challenges i will encounter in my life, and i am set on defeating it
i am only here because ubc can’t get it together, therefore i had to step in to put that all back into order. the campus that had it all, where lots of joy, sadness, laughter, tears, stresses and surprises collided to create lasting memories. having a nostalgic moment with the siting of irving. the brief visit was more so sprinting around trying to find answers and solutions to problems that shouldn’t have been problems to begin with
it was fun in its entirety but the aftermath of tag team sparring looked a little nasty. took a kick in the hand without wearing any gloves and resulted in a bruised hand and numerous undisclosed battle marks on other parts of my body. bruising isn’t my main concern, i’d definitely do it again next week
i do not miss these at all, but i have no choice in my current stage. such an intense game of dodgeball i don’t even remember what exactly happened. somehow i threw, jumped, dodged, hit the wall and landed terribly wrong on my ankle and before i know it, i was carried off the court and my night was over. yet another untimely injury
ankle still swollen and only feels worse after a night of dodgeball. having consulted my physio, apparently he had told me i was suppose to ice for next three days and wasn’t suppose to be do sporting activities. now that really disrupts my schedule, what am i going to do for the rest of the week??