had japanese food two days in a row but i don’t mind it one bit. still going strong with the intermittent fast as long as i keep dinner to a reasonable time. had an appointment in the morning to fix some ailing problems. then a fun taekwondo shift today even though we didn’t do anything out of the ordinary. it’s getting close to that time again for both the colour belt and blackbelt testing. this time i’m don’t feel as rushed and stressed preparing the students that should be taking it
recently each and every day is a mighty struggle because i am trapped in a battle against myself and within myself. regardless of what i go through, i try not to let problems surface and definitely don’t allow my mood to fluctuate. i never want my troubles to affect others because i am a strong and independent girl that ought to take care myself and not cause others to worry. truth is, i’ve been really troubled lately and i just don’t know what to do with myself. there are nights when i sit alone thinking about everything i am, everything i am not, and then eventually emotions get the better of me. sometimes i am uncertain what purpose i serve in society and why my existence even matters?? what exactly sets my heart on fire and where my passion lies?? this is a routine i would go through day in and day out, but so far i’ve come out empty handed majority of the time. every now and then, i would feel my strength as a person has been decreasing with every self destructing battle i fight. then i think to myself that life gave me those challenges because i am strong enough to live it. knowing nothing comes overnight, i can only carry on and stay positive that something will come along as long as i keep going. this is only one of the few challenges i will encounter in my life, and i am set on defeating it
i am only here because ubc can’t get it together, therefore i had to step in to put that all back into order. the campus that had it all, where lots of joy, sadness, laughter, tears, stresses and surprises collided to create lasting memories. having a nostalgic moment with the siting of irving. the brief visit was more so sprinting around trying to find answers and solutions to problems that shouldn’t have been problems to begin with
it was fun in its entirety but the aftermath of tag team sparring looked a little nasty. took a kick in the hand without wearing any gloves and resulted in a bruised hand and numerous undisclosed battle marks on other parts of my body. bruising isn’t my main concern, i’d definitely do it again next week
i do not miss these at all, but i have no choice in my current stage. such an intense game of dodgeball i don’t even remember what exactly happened. somehow i threw, jumped, dodged, hit the wall and landed terribly wrong on my ankle and before i know it, i was carried off the court and my night was over. yet another untimely injury
ankle still swollen and only feels worse after a night of dodgeball. having consulted my physio, apparently he had told me i was suppose to ice for next three days and wasn’t suppose to be do sporting activities. now that really disrupts my schedule, what am i going to do for the rest of the week??
timely visit to my physio to fix up my swollen ankle that randomly swelled up over the festive weekend. still not sure what i did to injure it again but as frustrating as it is, nothing will stop me now. this is just another challenge i must face and face the obstacles ahead, listen to my heart and be passionate with what i do