day 1443 – blistered pinkies

it didn’t feel this bad when i went to bed, but certainly erupted overnight. it never occurred to me tying copious amount of skate laces would result in blistered pinkies. really tempted to pop the two blisters on both my hands. i hope the water bubble goes away soon because it’s presence is felt when writing and typing. i still remember two years ago on this day i bruised my eye from a back flip attempt. how time has flown by and i’ve been missing the flipping more and more and thought about going back

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day 839 – not right

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i had a great weekend, only up to the moment i realize i had disobeyed all that i said i would do. i am fighting myself and feeling torn inside because i walked in with a number in mind but went well beyond that limit, i don’t know how it got so out of hand. it’s only finally hitting me hard today, the wheels have really fallen off and i don’t even know where to begin to pick myself up. what a heart felt disappointment when i have regretfully misused the trust others had in me. i failed others and most importantly i have failed myself. need to learn that discipline is choosing between what i want now and what i want most. perhaps i must be stricter and harder on myself and start my climb from the bottom again. i guess i deserved to have both my pinkies sprained during practice