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from the beginning of the calendar year, i have taken stride after strides in terms of personal growth. as per usual, i set some goals for myself, some more bold than normal. what stands out is how my work performance has changed and how much my role in the company has evolved. i’m grateful to be one of the five that my manager has identified to take on the emerging leaders coaching program. my manager has offloaded a lot of things onto my plate; it’s stressful but i’m proving i can handle all that. each time i prove myself capable, i gain more trust. i welcome all the new and bigger responsibilities because that’s the direction i want to move towards. while majority has been moving in the positive, there are some that’s lagging behind. some things aren’t coming by as easily as i had drawn out, and that’s consumed a bit of frustration over the last little while. i haven’t been seeing the results i thought i would have, but i am to be blamed for i haven’t put enough effort into that aspect. i do feel my discipline has slipped so i’ll need to tighten up in that regard. i’ve done some self evaluation and i’m going to keep going because i’m a believer that it’s only a matter of time before i start achieving. i may appear to have it all down pat in other’s eyes, but to me, i set the bar high for myself and i’m far from where i want to be. being my harshest critic is who i usually am and that only means i have nowhere to go but up

day 1647 – fishy game

it’s friday anf i have hockey; this combination usually means it’s a good day. i fit a workout in  between as part of my warmup to get me psyched up for this game. i was feeling strong going through my warmup and light power lifts. fishsticks as a whole played a well rounded game and dominated the ice in every way. i for one had a solid game with many nice passes, and a breakaway that could have ended the game. though we had many missed opportunities and didn’t come away with the win, but i have an assist to show for. feeling the frustration of being blindsided with no call, i played with more aggression and took someone down to send a message. quite satisfied with my game performance and know that i’ve just tied up my bet 

day 1082 – stanley park demo

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time to pull out that blue uniform to perform at walk with the dragon like every july. i don’t miss the 8am stanley park mornings, the dragon walk around seawall, or the several hours under either the blazing sun or pouring rain. what’s different about this year is we have more control and freedom as to how we want to structure our demo. the team performed well this year and everything ran as smoothly as it could. i can say this is one of my best demo performances to date, especially executing my triple side breaking better than all the times at rehearsal

day 940 – cirque tour

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thinking back to the olden days when i watched cirque du soleil totem right here in false creek vancouver. i adore watching all cirque shows alike because what they do is amazing and it’s nothing i can and will attempt in a million years. doesn’t look like they have any scheduled tours to vancouver this year, maybe it’s also an excuse to make a road trip

day 584 – pig out

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my competition performance was alright despite the overall standings showing otherwise. i needed to put on bengay three times to pull off a gutsy performance which numbed the pain and got me through my poomsae. but as i sit here at dinner time, i fretful admit i used up all my quota and can no longer stand or sit without pain. now just looking to recover and get better before the next competition. after spending the entire day at competition, it was time to digress and feast. stayed out late chatting it up and didn’t climb into bed until 5am no thanks to daylight savings

day 381 – korea showing off

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this year’s korean cultural festival brought the kukkiwon korean national demo team to perform. witnessed an amazing display of their skills and ever increasing level of difficulty. every move had so much power, accuracy, finesse and grace that it makes everything so ridiculously easy. unparalleled crazy kicks that only they can pull it off, they are korea’s best after all. inspired and hoping to pick up a thing or two from them

day 81 – surprise surprise

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with very short notice on this award, just had to wing the performance today. luckily i did not embarrass myself in front of all my students, parents, instructors and grandmaster and others in attendance of the promotion test. thinking back, at times when i could have and should have worked harder