day 1364 – toasting 

img_20200204_1621288582902095855352102.jpgi can tell you such restricting diet sucks when all i really wanted today was a chocolate chip cookie. it’s times like this when i crave all the bad stuff that i consistently pry myself from anyways. i’ve had enough plain bread and blandness the past week. my first trial run of first real food was an egg and my treat of the day was pint sized chicken udon for dinner. people have been telling me i shrunk, and my face is noticeably paler, skinnier and look borderline unhealthy

day 1329 – mothering me

img_20200204_1609331083885442243107174.jpgfamily will always be family and i am grateful to have caring ones. last night my mom said i was pale, this morning she handed me bottles and said i need to replenish the blood i lost. these red dates doesn’t taste good but i’ll drink it to give her a peace of mind. my mom was clearly more concerned than i was. at the end of the day, i know my mom cares for me more than i know it and still treats me her little girl