day 1605 – hd potluck

this is my second christmas potluck with hd and i’d say i enjoyed this one a lot more than the last. this year, acquaintances became friends and friends became good friends. i set out to accomplish a lot at work this calendar year and certainly i did it. i received year end thank you cards with from the words of my manager and big boss – amazing what you’ve accomplished this year! i made majority of my deadlines in the overworked months, and my break is definitely earned. there’s a lot more in store for me when i return, but for now my job is to recuperate and get ready to rock it in the new year. everyone’s waiting and watching on my comeback year


day 1557 – karaoke party

the start of saturday morning shifts has begun so i’ll be working nine straight hours on saturdays between two jobs. i wonder how long i will last with sixty four hour work weeks before i burn out. i was tired after the two shifts but doesn’t change my plans for an impromptu karaoke and board games night. i had a good night chilling with peeps. it was the fun i used to have; the good company kept from thinking why i’m still feeling solo all the time. it’s not a good feeling to always never have the support of the closest ones. i miss the times when i could be out way past midnight and actually have a night life

day 1465 – victim 

i had a lot of trouble sleeping tonight. what makes me such a good victim for people to hurt and take advantage of. i guess my feelings can be swept aside, guess promises can be broken, guess what i like or don’t like doesn’t matter anyways. at first i didn’t think i was fat but being repeatedly called that makes me believe i am indeed fat and repeatedly makes me skip meals. even after long days i force myself through the fatigue to come here simply cause i can’t eat unless i exercise. today is one of those days where i’m feeling completely burned out from a fifty eight hour work week but still dragged myself to workout because my dinner is not yet earned

day 1404 – priority list 

fitbit shows me i need to put myself higher on the priority list and sleep a little more. sadly the amount i worked this week doubled the amount of sleep i got. i never really got a break and the start of another work week is in just a few hours away. i’m not looking forward to next week working all seven days. i am not always guaranteed a weekend, but at least this week i still have sunday off as a small breather

day 1225 – delivery


as a treat for finishing my semester, i am delivered a sushi dinner. i was majorly stressed and overworked leading up to this day, but i am relieved of my duties of and sharing my happiness together. i haven’t had time to even sit at my desk chir much so i am really looking forward to going back to some routines. on the top of my priorities is sleep and a long, long to do list to catch up with

day 1170 – tired brain


some thoughts are really getting to me lately. it bugs me, but speaking my heart is hard. maybe i am just faulty or maybe i just need to suck it up and accept not being accepted. i try to not let these thoughts get in my head, but it’s only human. the storm is coming and i’m not looking forward to going outside; perhaps once this rainstorm is over, it’ll be over for me too

day 779 – when and where


when is it my turn to take a real vacation to get away from this hectic life?? i have taken time off, i have flown and driven and gone across canada, but none of which was purely for vacation because i held competition obligations. i am drained, overworked and am in dire need of a vacation where i can just relax and get away from stresses of life no matter how big or small. there’s too many places, cities and countries on my wishlist; when and where will i be able to fulfill them??