day 839 – not right

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i had a great weekend, only up to the moment i realize i had disobeyed all that i said i would do. i am fighting myself and feeling torn inside because i walked in with a number in mind but went well beyond that limit, i don’t know how it got so out of hand. it’s only finally hitting me hard today, the wheels have really fallen off and i don’t even know where to begin to pick myself up. what a heart felt disappointment when i have regretfully misused the trust others had in me. i failed others and most importantly i have failed myself. need to learn that discipline is choosing between what i want now and what i want most. perhaps i must be stricter and harder on myself and start my climb from the bottom again. i guess i deserved to have both my pinkies sprained during practice

day 803 – lift them

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couldn’t get through my conscience without hitting the gym after a horrible eating day. just pigged out terribly bad past two days i feel like crap. no more thanksgiving pigging out for me, eating is so overrated. the horrible combination of bad eating and no exercise makes it so tough to get back into the thick of training, and really showed for it at the gym today. i sure didn’t make the numbers today and that’s a warning i must step it up

day 761 – after the storm

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apparently there is vancouverites still living without power thirty six hours after the storm hit. i feel sorry for those who have spent the past thirty odd hours in darkness without electricity and most importantly without wifi. i guess yesterday’s storm really hit the city harder than first imagined but life must go on. if anyone wanted tips of eating and passing time during power outages, eating hotpot at home is the way to go

day 528 – thirst craving

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it’s bad when i am secretly craving milk tea, especially at midnight. this was milk tea i had during my visit to taiwan and it also tops all milk teas i ever tasted. too bad i shouldn’t have this cause there’s way too much sugar in these drinks for my own good, need to find a way to suppress these craving, but i find i always have trouble controlling myself. i think i just need to make myself go to bed and everything will be alright

day 509 – first of many

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so the christmas feasting has officially begun, every meal from here on for the rest of the year will be a guilt trip cheat meal. this is all you can eat sushi with monday tier 6 champ throbocops. i generally dislike all you can eats because lots of food with no exercise doesn’t cope well with my stomach. did i mention i desperately need to hit the gym to work off all the unnecessary consumption