day 2163 – sharing difficulties

a subpar session and horrible stretch has left me frustrated as ever. even the boston pizza spicy thai chicken wrap sitting in front of me didn’t change my appetite or mood. i didn’t expect to have this talk with the flightclub crew, but i realize we’ve become close friends that i’m okay with letting them in on some of my thoughts and feelings, and they also shared theirs. lately, lots of negative thoughts were floating through my head, all of which left me empty. feeling discouraged with the training and progress as of late, i was beginning to accept my fate in my freestyle dream. i opened up and almost cried, but they listened and seemed to understand what i’m going through. maybe they finally realize the strong outer shell i uphold isn’t so strong on the inside

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day 1566 – tech signage 

tech team signage is now up and hanging over my workstation. working on a statutory holiday for a swap day because there’s too much to do for the amount of time i’m have during regular hours. logging another eleven and a half hours to get my millennial drawings into the plant for production. it’s great to hear that manager likes expressing things to me; said i’m trustworthy person to vent to and probably valued my insight. as a result, i’ve also found it much easier to open up to him to mutually support each other

resolution series: [nineteen] relationships

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the many walks of life has brought me to many people, all of which have enriched my life in unique ways. every person has brought something different to the table but each of you have touched my heart one way or another. we took some chances and gave it everything. i cherish the memories and time we had and don’t regret any of that was created and shared. i am an individual that locks up a lot inside and doesn’t let my thoughts and feelings out unless i feel it’s the right person who can crack the shell to make me feel infatuation. there are some i really enjoy spending time with and feel comfortable being around where i can say whatever my heart desires. with these people, i feel an odd sense of security that changes all complexity. i regretfully say these selected few where we are highly compatible in many ways but can only wish but not progress beyond. it just cannot happen for so many complicated reasons i cannot and will not explain. it just wasn’t meant to be, our fate was destined to remain friends, and good friends we are. i look forward those that i will encounter and the chances i will take. if something was meant to be, it will happen. at the right time, with the right person, for the best reason