day 1556 – out there

i did not sleep much last night, or maybe didn’t sleep at all. instead, i drove out around and around thinking of so many harmful things and thinking i want to be out of this misery. then it’s like i woke up from a dream and went on with my life like every saturday – more of work. this day it’s all me holding up the whole class alone got me quite drained. good thing i didn’t up having some fun at drop in hockey or else i would probably have crashed at some point 

day 1295 – another moveĀ 

the department has had a lot of changes since the new manager stepped in. my role has been flipped upside down and i’m not on a team anymore. i’m on my own transitioning into developing a new collection of drawings and renderings. this will be a good change and a good challenge for myself. and although my desk has been relocated, the same desk setup still applies