it was critical for me to be at taekwondo even just hanging onto the half a life i had left. i was feeling weak and dizzy while losing my voice but still felt the need to be there to make sure the students who’s getting ready for promotion got the proper stuff down. i stayed as long as i could last and helped the many i saw before i could no longer. at least i went home with the peace of mind that i gave it everything i had and supported my students in ways possible. now i’m just going to pass out early and rest this bronchitis
instead of going out on saturday night like every other week, i stayed home and got a lot done this evening. i felt obligated to carry out the bulk of europe research. i had to look for train schedules, prices, attractions and browse for a airbnb that works for our travels. paris and london are extremely expensive europeans cities; i didn’t expect this trip to be cheap so i better be strategic with what we choose to do. i did manage to find some good places that weren’t going to break our banks
i went into work and did my lunch and learn presentation. i went not because i wanted to, but cause obligation calls. the way everything has unfolded recently left me feeling sour and i’m about to give up trying to reach for justice. i no longer feel like standing up for what’s fair and will just do whatever is said. the amount of work i manage, the amount of stress from all directions, and the lack of respect i’m receiving just doesn’t add up. the renumeration that was promised doesn’t exist. if things don’t change, then i’m on my way out
when is it my turn to take a real vacation to get away from this hectic life?? i have taken time off, i have flown and driven and gone across canada, but none of which was purely for vacation because i held competition obligations. i am drained, overworked and am in dire need of a vacation where i can just relax and get away from stresses of life no matter how big or small. there’s too many places, cities and countries on my wishlist; when and where will i be able to fulfill them??
just another day at the office as part of the obligatory demands of my job. i have had a lot of taekwondo in the past 72 hours which ultimately took up my entire weekend. i started my weekend with my usual friday night class, ended my weekend with promotion test and teaching and kukkiwon demo scattered in between. had to turn to my friend bengay to ease and help me through the weekend