work really feels like a drag in the recent days. i have an overflowing amount of tasks and deadlines but none of it is giving me much excitement or motivation. maybe it has to do with the lack of appreciation for what i do as well as the amount of additional tasks i’m assigned to that’s unrelated to my job description. thank goodness it’s finally friday so i won’t have to be in this office the next two days. i looked forward to the week’s end even though i have to work on saturday anyway
i’m feeling upset and beat because it’s crunch time and i can’t seem to land anything, not even my basic back tuck. the test is in a matter of days and my x-out feels like it’s fallen apart. it’s not a required board breaking, but i have been yearning to do this and if i was only going to take the fourth dan test once in my life, i better make it be something i’ll remember. i wanted to be proud of what i did and not just do the bare minimum. at this rate, i’m not sure if it’s going to happen
didn’t really celebrate mother’s day other than sending a whatsapp message to my mother who’s in hong kong spending it with her mother which i’m sure is very special for both of them. i didn’t feel like going out or doing much at all. it’s not like i could have gone to the gym to lift anyways. i was content to stay home and spent the afternoon watching an epic raptors game seven win. it’s great to see the raptors keep their playoff run alive
woke up early to catch some wimbledon action and federer didn’t disappoint; an amazing two set down comeback gets him a spot in the semifinals. i didn’t feel up to par at training tonight which really brought me down. i can only blame myself because i know i made a bad judgement call prior to and i can’t let that happen again. spectating some flag football action under the white wispy clouds and ending the night with mo eased my mind a tad
thought i would get away from my regular flavours and try some new flavours this time. blackberry was a bad choice, i didn’t expect it to taste horrible but i guess i didn’t know what to expect. i hope the other flavours in this batch taste better. feeling strange today, almost a little down for no particular reason, i skipped out on my original evening plans and just went to the gym instead
attempting to train tonight even though my body just isn’t feeling it but got to try anyways. the long battle of my cold continues well into the second week, it just doesn’t want to leave me alone and let me live regularly. i hate feeling like this, but i also hate missing trainings, practices and games even more. weather isn’t helping at all with the change of temperature and earlier night falls.