day 815 – chances slipping

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the registration deadline is closing in and my chances of being able to compete is diminishing. it’s looking a lot like i have to give up my hope of competing in pan am club cause i still am not cleared to kick. i was really looking forward to going to this one but wouldn’t sacrifice quality just so i can go. a competition would lose its meaning if i went in under trained and not able to uphold my own standard. i know very well that i would feel even worse if i went and did subpar because i am not there to participate but to contend. i guess i will turn my attention to focus on rehab and prepare for what’s next in store for me

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day 811 – teammates tattle tale

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when things feel slightly improved i feel like i can be normal again but in reality i am far from it. shouldn’t be playing but here i am in full gear trying to give it a go even though a dozen people didn’t approve of it and tried to drag me off the court. it’s a chance i wanted to take because i wanted to see what state my knee is in and what is it capable of, if anything. what can i say, i live on the edge with a life full of high risks