all in a days work

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this reminds me of my physio crew that serves me so well. they have tried to hammer that the feelings of soreness, tired, fatigue, exhaustion are all part of the package because it means the training is working. for all the years they have known me, they must have heard every possible reason or excuse from me by now and no longer adhere to what i say or how i feel. as far as they are concerned, they will push me as hard and as far as they see fit, and give me no breathing room to escape. my reasons have little or no effect on them, they just listen and look at me but do nothing to acknowledge. even when i plead i can’t, their response is only “i don’t care, you have or do it”. so i know whenever something asked of me seems insurmountable, my mind is constantly finding ways to cut myself some slack. but no matter what i say or plead, the demand doesn’t change but all these can’t thoughts comes out so naturally. but i am grateful for their uncompromising and unsympathetic attitude, because they see that i am capable of such and that’s the only way i will get better. it is the main reason i have made big strides in the right direction – towards a healthier me

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day 552 – vmo

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no secret what is the underlying issue that i try to slip through under the radar all these years. i knew it was only a matter of time until muscle imbalance catches up to me. today, physio finally forced it upon me to work my vmo using the muscle stimulator and i am already not fond of that device. both kinesiologist and physio flat out said it’s a tortuous process where the machine would cause a lot of painful contractions but said that i am forced to do it for as long as it needs to catch up. its a brutal process, but it must be done because he’s not going to let me off the hook anymore

day 482 – adjustment time

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my legs took a ton of beating and bruising lately including a bad knee collision a few days ago. instantly knew it was out but was still able to carry out my regular exercises the next little while without over compensating so i had hoped it wasn’t as bad as i initially thought. went in to check it out and my physio confirmed that my gut feeling was correct. getting both my knee cap popped back in place and wrist taken care of was painful as ever, but it had to be done. he gave me the hardest task possible and threatened i musnt make my knee cap out of place again. i will continue my long mission to search for ways to protect my knees keep them from shifting

day 419 – my rationale

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life is all about getting over challenges to be able to enjoy the things i consider fulfilling and meaningful. everyone has different values in life and many have disagreed with my decisions but have supported me in ways possible. no stranger to pain and injuries but today is one of those days where i feel absolutely grateful at my appointment. for the first time in a long time, i actually feel like i have my legs under me and all the beating i have taken is paying off. a big shout out to my physio and kinesiologists who have kept me in my sports throughout the years. couldn’t have done it without any one of you

day 321 – guess where i am

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taking what i deem as necessary steps to getting back on the mats, on the courts and in the gym. at physio taking orders, working hard and taking beating that will ultimately give myself the best chance and most optimal return date. here i know i am in the good hands of my physio and kinesiologists who is pushing me hard to train me better everyday. don’t ever change because you guys don’t let me slack