day 1177 – vantage point

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taking a step back and putting everything on hold to regroup, recharge and recalibrate myself. i’ve been too distracted lately and not loving myself for who i am; if i don’t, no one would. the toxic feeling got too far to the point where i thought i wasn’t worth. it was a long overdue reset day where i did nothing related. i wanted a break and i got it, but now it’s time to find that fire and move forward in the right direction

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resolution series: [ten] fitspo

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for kids, bumps and bruises, sprains and breaks heal quickly. but once the teens passes you by, you realize these problems persist longer than what you are used to. you can no longer be as carefree when attempting something because that innocence starts to leave your mind and childhood is inevitably leaving your body. that’s for normal people, but it’s an entirely different story for me. i started getting injured at a very early age and because sports is my passion, it makes it my weakness. my personality and lack of patience doesn’t allow me to rest long enough before going back out and playing again. without letting it heal properly like it should, i push it far too hard much too soon. i have been fortunate i have had an awesome physio overlooking me for over the past dozen years cause without him, i either will not be walking today, or wouldn’t be involved in any of the sports. because of the team that supports me in the back end, i can continue to do the things i love. when i was younger, i never fully understood why they were forcing me to do all these training and boring rehab exercises, but i slowly come to realize what they put me through is only for my own good. ever since then, i told myself i would make that change by listening to them and letting them push me as hard as they see fit. it gives me the satisfication to look back at when i first started and notice how much better and stronger i have gotten over the years and the work and effort i pitched in are finally starting to pay off. the deal is simple, i do my maintenance work and take care of my body the right way, then i get to go out and do my thing. i need to continually get stronger in order to get better at what i do and be the best that i can be. taking care of my body is definitely top priority in the long run. and when i stray away from that, my wallpaper and backgrounds act as a reminder to always shut up and train

day 552 – vmo

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no secret what is the underlying issue that i try to slip through under the radar all these years. i knew it was only a matter of time until muscle imbalance catches up to me. today, physio finally forced it upon me to work my vmo using the muscle stimulator and i am already not fond of that device. both kinesiologist and physio flat out said it’s a tortuous process where the machine would cause a lot of painful contractions but said that i am forced to do it for as long as it needs to catch up. its a brutal process, but it must be done because he’s not going to let me off the hook anymore

day 502 – sweats

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couldn’t wait any longer to wear my new vdl sweats out, first off, to physio because its comfy and warm. pleasant surprise to hear that both my knees are fine and progressively getting stronger, meaning my hard work is paying off. before i feel too good, he completely crushed my shin into bits and hurt me like there’s no tomrorow. still have to worry about my wrist moving onto further scans and tests to see what’s the underlying problem

day 482 – adjustment time

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my legs took a ton of beating and bruising lately including a bad knee collision a few days ago. instantly knew it was out but was still able to carry out my regular exercises the next little while without over compensating so i had hoped it wasn’t as bad as i initially thought. went in to check it out and my physio confirmed that my gut feeling was correct. getting both my knee cap popped back in place and wrist taken care of was painful as ever, but it had to be done. he gave me the hardest task possible and threatened i musnt make my knee cap out of place again. i will continue my long mission to search for ways to protect my knees keep them from shifting

day 475 – physioterrorist

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wrist took a series of unfavorable blows this past week which caused it to be pretty much next to useless. though my left hand is much weaker in comparison, it is used extensively and losing function changes all complexity. driving is made tenfold more difficult since i am a left handed driver.  a much needed check up with my physio to fix that ailing wrist and seized up leg. after some excruciating pain, i was told to stay put for next twenty four hours and do nothing beyond walking and heat pad

day 456 – breaking new ground

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lack of action picture so here’s what my kinesiologist claimed as his awesome water bottle. feeling accomplished i am able to take my rehab execises up to next level after patiently working at the same level for a few months. it helps being trained and constantly pushed to take steps breaking into new ground and greater difficulty with each exercise. and now i need to keep my lifting consistent and work my way back to the weights i was capable of during my peak form. i am eager and feeling determined to pick it up and break into more new territory very soon