day 2072 – skinny

img_20200124_1337537582007002541905786.jpga look back to when i was at my leanest and also have two happy ankles. at that point, i was eating well and exercising optimally while on properly working ankles. i liked it back then when i was at my lowest body fat percentage with a four pack, while being able to do eleven consecutive pullups. i’m not liking where i am at now; i’m sure the stresses at work and injury troubles plays a big factor. let the cutting phase begin to get back to the best shape i’ve ever been. the time is now to stay focused on my goals and disciplined on how i’m going to get there

day 2039 – full size mcflurry

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this will be the last mcflurry amongst all sugary treats as i’ll be doing a low sugar for the month of march. that means no more bubble teas, cookies, chocolate, ice cream, dessert and many other things that has added artificial sweeteners. i’ve eaten so poorly the last while i really should be ashamed. the laziness is unacceptable to my standards so it’s now time to clean it up and get fit again. i’m sure the transition is the hardest part, but i must stick with it. i’m excited to see what the results will be

day 1908 – bought in

felt like i needed to take a plunge into hustle mode and did just that in a gigantic way. i’m frustrated with the stall and the lackluster effort i’ve mustered as of late. let’s not have any more unnecessary setbacks that’s going to prevent me from where i need to go. instead, i’ve decided to take my destiny in my own hands and make a hard push for everything i’ve ways wanted and envisioned. i won’t let anything stop me when i’m being held accountable

day 1827 – quick reminder

thank you for dropping this quote off on my desk because it saved me from going down a rabbit hole. i have always been a firm believer that discipline is what got me farther than i would have imagined and this time is no different. coincidentally it’s the turn of a calendar month which is the perfect time to pick myself up and try to turn things around. i’m set on making august a good month and get back to where i need to be – my top form

day 1807 – camper

img_20200130_2213459075903413831208943.jpgi was on the fence of doing bootcamp today but got peer pressured into it since multiple coworkers tried to call me out for skipping. i didn’t want it to interfere with the new workout schedule i had planned to start. luckily i didn’t get lazy after the bootcamp; i stuck with my original plan and went to the gym after. it worked out because i spent that time at the gym while knight bridge was experiencing huge delays from a truck collision. though i didn’t completely escape from the backed up traffic of a flipped truck, i got my pulling exercises in

day 1131 – back in season

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less goofing around from now on because offseason is officially over today. onward with the first of many coaching and training sessions of another season. practice went well; i had more of a coaching role today as it was a big bunch. reminded myself i would stay professional and i did. although it’s not a good sign when i start the first training relying on ktape stretched across my back

day 1001 – quick lift

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decided against playing dodgeball tonight, but didn’t want to feel too useless and couldn’t let my laziness dictate. what better way to treat the soreness than to force my body through a quick light workout. making the most out of my time, working efficiently with little rest so i can maximize that quick hour workout. i am comfortable at the gym and it’s where my heart wants to be even when i am sore all over

living through my falls

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it’s unbelievable how fast things could change and how far things could fall. outside my shell, it’s hard to tell i have lived through two very rough weeks. but beneath my shell, my life felt very close to the “underworld”, filled with mayhem that’s got me feeling rocking bottom. the descend started off with a week long fever, cough then cold. i couldn’t muster much activity during this time; i was bed ridden and under endless medication majority of the time. my body felt weak as ever; all the ground i’ve gained has been lost, and deep down i felt even worse about myself because i couldn’t do anything to change it. luckily, i had a personal nurse that took care of me and almost felt more concerned about my health than i ever was. just as i was recovering from sickness, the nightmare hit me hard – literally. ever since being struck at dodgeball playoffs, i felt like i was living in a really bad dream. having a concussion is scary because everything felt out of whack. my head and neck were throbbing, my movements were slowed, my speech and thoughts were disoriented, my appetite was affected – the bottom line is, i wasn’t able to function like my normal self. what made it difficult was i couldn’t tell people what i was going through nor could i disclose the severity fearing they will not let me continue with my upcoming events which means so much to me. i’m feeling slightly better with each passing day and a week after the incident, i can safely say recovery seems like it’s on course. thankful mo has been by my side during this rough span. just having his presence makes things better and gives me the inspiration to think on the bright side even when times get tough. i’ve fallen very far down and lost a lot of the gains i’ve been working hard at, but now is really not the time to hang my head. i’m not okay with myself and my performance in it’s current stage, so i’m going to make it right. i must get it together and make up that ground in a hurry. it won’t be easy, but it will be done

day 948 – sweat it out

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i want to say it feels real good to be back in my sanctuary, but realistically i still feel pretty crappy from whatever disease i have. nonetheless, what matters most is i successfully got my butt here and made it through a necessary workout. the sunshine made a unannounced appearance today, but i spent most of daylight in teaching in a basement. good news is after five hours of teaching, i am still in one piece. popping a few pills before going to bed hoping to tame my irritated throat and allow me to sleep

day 929 – resurrect

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tomorrow i am going to get some me time to reboot both my mind and my system. i feel i need some time to regroup and make sure i’m back on track doing things i need to be doing and doing things i enjoy doing, for the right reasons. the past week or two has been lousy where i am just going through everything mindlessly like a robot but not thinking twice about what i am seeking out of it. and during this time, there’s either been a lot of emotional eating or unhealthy thoughts and choices made. i really should put things back into it’s proper routine and get back in the right frame of mind to make the best choices for myself moving forward. february is a short month, so better not waste time and get back on track as soon as i possibly can