day 675 – messy me

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all i wanted to do was have my recovery drink but turns out i spent a lot more time cleaning up the mess i made than the time required to finish drinking. what made matters worse was i didn’t just fail once, but twice. the first scoop, powder flung out all over my table. then second scoop, i dropped the scoop and scattered on my lap, chair and floor. turns out to be too much work

day 550 – should be there

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a friend sent me this gorgeous view today. i should be there with her enjoying the snow on big white this weekend, but sadly i am not. instead, screw ups and lack of communication made me drop my plans and left me stuck in vancouver doing my usual routine plus another standard instructor seminar. i am not content to let winter season pass by without having gone up the mountain for some skiing

day 499 – eye drops

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my eye is feeling irritated so probably a it was better idea to give my eyes a day off contacts today. must have rubbed my eyes by accident in bed after applying cream on my ginormous bruise. i hope it will get a lot better overnight with some eye drops and actual sleep or else i will be in trouble tomorrow because i refuse to dodge with glasses and can’t dodge blind either

day 442 – big bullies

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was happily minding my own business and rolling out the tightness before practice begins and this is what i get from a group of monkeys. this bunch of big bullies took this opportunity taking selfies while trying to harass and beat me up while i am down with messed up knees. two days and counting until we hit the road but still practicing even if i was on one leg because it’s now or never

day 377 – getting tanned

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don’t get the wrong impression i didn’t attempt to suicide, just got cut by the door latch. got tanned enough recently to make the bandaid standout from my skin tone. typically pretty tanned every summer so this is getting closer to the shade i want, but will eventually lose it to the winter darkness

day 323 – a night i wish i never had

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as if my day wasn’t as unflattering enough, it continues into the night. just as i thought i could go home and wait for the arrival of friday, things get even worse. my parents and i just can’t seem to see eye to eye recently and it’s making me very frustrated. i am dealing with way too much at the moment to correct what’s been said and done. the only two things i want to do is go to the gym and let out my steam and sit in darkness to get some time alone so i don’t explode on anyone else

day 106 – living without a dream

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a place of mind…is it really as simple as it sounds?? all i feel is a place of distress, dilemma and uncompromising fortunes. what was once satisfying is no longer satisfying, how do i continue to take strides forward?? in the biggest search to find what will motivate and satisfy me