day 1620 – game ready


first game back in league action after a three month haul of rehabbing and a lot of waiting. it was a painful process that i never want to go through again but i’m glad it’s behind me now. i’ve long for this day to come and i’ll admit i had butterflies leading up to arriving at the rink. stepping on the ice for my first shift was a little strange and that comes with no surprise. the calibration process didn’t take long; i felt much better and adjusted even on my second shift. perhaps getting the adrenaline going and focusing on the game itself got my legs back under me. it feels so awesome to be officially back in game action and no signs of ill-effects coming from my hand. the happiness that’s running through my body well after the game will probably keep me up, but i have a good reason to smile and points to show for

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resolution series: [ten] fitspo

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for kids, bumps and bruises, sprains and breaks heal quickly. but once the teens passes you by, you realize these problems persist longer than what you are used to. you can no longer be as carefree when attempting something because that innocence starts to leave your mind and childhood is inevitably leaving your body. that’s for normal people, but it’s an entirely different story for me. i started getting injured at a very early age and because sports is my passion, it makes it my weakness. my personality and lack of patience doesn’t allow me to rest long enough before going back out and playing again. without letting it heal properly like it should, i push it far too hard much too soon. i have been fortunate i have had an awesome physio overlooking me for over the past dozen years cause without him, i either will not be walking today, or wouldn’t be involved in any of the sports. because of the team that supports me in the back end, i can continue to do the things i love. when i was younger, i never fully understood why they were forcing me to do all these training and boring rehab exercises, but i slowly come to realize what they put me through is only for my own good. ever since then, i told myself i would make that change by listening to them and letting them push me as hard as they see fit. it gives me the satisfication to look back at when i first started and notice how much better and stronger i have gotten over the years and the work and effort i pitched in are finally starting to pay off. the deal is simple, i do my maintenance work and take care of my body the right way, then i get to go out and do my thing. i need to continually get stronger in order to get better at what i do and be the best that i can be. taking care of my body is definitely top priority in the long run. and when i stray away from that, my wallpaper and backgrounds act as a reminder to always shut up and train

day 660 – going all in

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it’s all or nothing, like gambling at the casino. the only difference is i am in total control of the outcome. i think i give myself too much pressure cause i have my own standards and cannot afford to lose. i’d be performing not only in front of the grandmaster, the instructors that’s taught me from the very beginning, but also the students that i have been teaching. saved up all my scholarships so i could use it altogether at times like this. saying goodbye to all the awards, now i am feeling poor all over again but at least i am using it for something worthwhile

day 617 – swept it

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i know they just restocked but i literally swept their shelves clean of their snack bars. will be extremely hectic in the upcoming weeks; no time for real meals where everything is on the go, so loading up while supplies last. they will be of high demand while i go through this phase and i will have to adjust to them. at least these don’t taste like cardboard or else it would be really rough and i might starve to death. busy life doesn’t make any excuses for not eating or going for fast food, i still try to get my protein in

day 375 – making personal best

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a day i made an important personal best which i never would have imagined being able to do a few months back. definitely fulfilling walking out of there on a sunny sunday afternoon and i am certain as long as i work at it, there will be many more new personal bests along with a lot of fulfilling trips home. just knowing that we can’t stay down forever, there will be better days ahead as long as you are willing to work for it

day 359 – flashback

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looking at this photo of me back in the day makes me laugh. this was my first ever competition years ago and i have never looked back since and have gone on to many more. who knew this competition kickstarted my interest in competition and to this day still continue to compete whenever possible. seven years and counting, i have risen to and accepted many challenges along the way. been plagued with numerous undesirable injuries ranging in severity, but nothing stops me from doing what i care about. i have learned and gained so much, transformed from a girl who didn’t have the confidence to speak up in front of people to now having the confidence to step in the ring alone and perform in front of a large crowd. this is not to say its in my comfort zone because i do get nervous every time, but at least i am willing to take that step forward and do what needs to be done

day 356 – power matcha

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forgot mine on the go so grabbed a power matcha to fill my protein after physio. tasted good but too filling for my bladder and made me go pee twice in less than an hour. overall happy with how my appointment went, everything seems to be stable and moving in the good direction. able to do my regular exercises with ease and also more difficult variations of those exercises without feeling discomfort, only fatigue from the recent lack of exercise. worked hard to get to this point and it’s certainly showing progress but still got a long way to go before i can say its comfortable