day 2287 – condo modeling

i was feeling pretty emo because i couldn’t go flip, couldn’t play hockey, couldn’t workout and couldn’t do anything sports related. i was suppose to go watch my team play their game, but i really couldn’t get myself to the rink just to sit on the sideline. missing all my games and trainings made me feel dead inside. i was bored so went ahead and modeled a dream unit with the picasso galleria floorplans. i really don’t have an entertaining life besides my sports and active lifestyle

day 15090 – beneath 

i didn’t have to come today but i didn’t know what to do with myself when my mind doesn’t stop going. struggles still pop up though all this time i denied i was hurt much deeper than the surface. here i am on a friday night trying to workout like i have nothing else better to do. i have to step back, take a deep breath and remind myself i didn’t do anything wrong

day 617 – swept it

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i know they just restocked but i literally swept their shelves clean of their snack bars. will be extremely hectic in the upcoming weeks; no time for real meals where everything is on the go, so loading up while supplies last. they will be of high demand while i go through this phase and i will have to adjust to them. at least these don’t taste like cardboard or else it would be really rough and i might starve to death. busy life doesn’t make any excuses for not eating or going for fast food, i still try to get my protein in

day 522 – stress therapy

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too stressed out lately with all that school work, applications and deadlines coming up in a hurry. getting my stress therapy so i can regroup before i snap and lose my mind. i have come to realize this is one of my happy place where i can be alone in my own little world. so glad i have an outlet because i know this place is where i can get away from the busyness of my hectic life

day 505 – drained

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feeling awfully drained and really needing a break. no doubt i knew there would come a time when my mind and body will not allow me to continue with the kind of schedule i run on. its been wearing down on me for over half a year and now my mind is ready to go on strike. i wake up everyday feeling crappy and even more so exhausted knowing the things i have to get through day after day. all i want to do is shut off the world and finish what i have to do. it’s christmas season and all i am too drained to even enjoy it. i try to hide all that stress and pretend everything is okay because i don’t want to put it upon anyone else but somehow it’s showing through my shell. i need a break, i know its not time yet, but i know it’s coming in a couple more weeks

day 498 – catching up to me

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when was the last time i had a chance to sit down in front of my computer and do nothing?? or that i wasn’t out running around doing stuff and taking care of business?? i don’t ever recalling a particular night like that for the past three months. i am running out of gas, and fatigue is really catching up to me. glad to see that a few things will be off my plate very soon so i may get some much needed personal time and space

day 466 – post sunday work

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a nonstop sunday full of work, someone needed post blackbelt test drinks to finish off the weekend. with a couple of the crew chilling and doing some logistics planning because this is the only down time i get so must use it wisely. liking the temporary freedom while parents not in town; gives me the space and freedom to be out more often than not but now i need to prepare my own meals

day 431 – nonstop sunday

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a crazy sunday with back to back to back to back to back activities that started with an early morning draft, then a couple hours of teaching, rushed to dodgeball skills clinic, followed by instructor seminar and meeting and finally onto poomsae training. last minute confirmation for competition finally approved, meaning its time to get going on my own poomsae training

day 421 – sala series

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as school term wears on and everything goes into full swing, my busy life schedule and commitments are tearing me apart like no tomorrow. already feeling so stressed and so worn out from the busyness and even been feeling unwell all week but haven’t got the time to see the doctor. not that i would choose to go to a doctor unless i am dying in some form