day 2287 – condo modeling

i was feeling pretty emo because i couldn’t go flip, couldn’t play hockey, couldn’t workout and couldn’t do anything sports related. i was suppose to go watch my team play their game, but i really couldn’t get myself to the rink just to sit on the sideline. missing all my games and trainings made me feel dead inside. i was bored so went ahead and modeled a dream unit with the picasso galleria floorplans. i really don’t have an entertaining life besides my sports and active lifestyle

day 15090 – beneath 

i didn’t have to come today but i didn’t know what to do with myself when my mind doesn’t stop going. struggles still pop up though all this time i denied i was hurt much deeper than the surface. here i am on a friday night trying to workout like i have nothing else better to do. i have to step back, take a deep breath and remind myself i didn’t do anything wrong

day 617 – swept it

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i know they just restocked but i literally swept their shelves clean of their snack bars. will be extremely hectic in the upcoming weeks; no time for real meals where everything is on the go, so loading up while supplies last. they will be of high demand while i go through this phase and i will have to adjust to them. at least these don’t taste like cardboard or else it would be really rough and i might starve to death. busy life doesn’t make any excuses for not eating or going for fast food, i still try to get my protein in

day 522 – stress therapy

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too stressed out lately with all that school work, applications and deadlines coming up in a hurry. getting my stress therapy so i can regroup before i snap and lose my mind. i have come to realize this is one of my happy place where i can be alone in my own little world. so glad i have an outlet because i know this place is where i can get away from the busyness of my hectic life

day 505 – drained

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feeling awfully drained and really needing a break. no doubt i knew there would come a time when my mind and body will not allow me to continue with the kind of schedule i run on. its been wearing down on me for over half a year and now my mind is ready to go on strike. i wake up everyday feeling crappy and even more so exhausted knowing the things i have to get through day after day. all i want to do is shut off the world and finish what i have to do. it’s christmas season and all i am too drained to even enjoy it. i try to hide all that stress and pretend everything is okay because i don’t want to put it upon anyone else but somehow it’s showing through my shell. i need a break, i know its not time yet, but i know it’s coming in a couple more weeks

day 498 – catching up to me

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when was the last time i had a chance to sit down in front of my computer and do nothing?? or that i wasn’t out running around doing stuff and taking care of business?? i don’t ever recalling a particular night like that for the past three months. i am running out of gas, and fatigue is really catching up to me. glad to see that a few things will be off my plate very soon so i may get some much needed personal time and space