day 1442 – one on one’s 

img_20200203_1515076167481556798064390.jpgmanager taking me out for lunch followed by a review over coffee. together, we discussed a lot about direction and devised an action plan to get me there. he saw me as one that could grow and take on a leadership position. he then asked me what were things i could improve on; i knew where it was going before he even finished his question. two things really stood out to him – he wanted me to be more confident and more decisive

day 1249 – year end work

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closing the year off where i want to be. although there were distractions at the gym, being plugged in helped cancel out some of that noise. though it still hurts to do a lot if things and it still hurts knowing i’m still under restrictions, i still had a decent eve workout. here’s hoping more good workouts for 2017 and following through gunning for better fitgoals. i’ll never stop chasing for what i want knowing where i once was. i need to stay confident in myself no matter how much doubts and put downs i face

summer special

the end of september can only mean that summer is officially over. september was a rough month, but i had a great summer and offseason away from dodgeball and taekwondo life. it was a summer with lots of happenings, new undertakings and big decisions that involved making a change, stepping out of my comfort zone and of course taking a chance. i live a very active lifestyle and took full advantage of the extra free time i got this summer by making my lifestyle even more active. i found myself getting really into crossfit olympic lifting plus also making the one plate club which is a big improvement. although an injury has momentarily stopped me from lifting, nothing will stop me once i regain my health. i had a blast with mo going on adventures. together, we created a lot of lomoventures with the highlight being a nice harrison hotsprings getaway. needless to say, we’ve been through a lot and grown significantly. he’s basically my zen when i get too stressed and uptight about things. no relationship is completely problem-free – we’re not different, but we’ve done well in this area. we don’t always see eye to eye, but we make sure we’re created equal and know that we like each other for who we are, then we’ll work things out. other notable events include completing a spartan sprint, playing on a softball team, training with national team coach, hiking, joining a hockey league. and of course some things never change like hitting tennis balls, visits to physio, annual walk with the dragon and the random pigging out. i look forward to improving and building upon what summer 2016 was all about

 

day 1108 – the feels

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had one tough workout session but feeling darn good about everything i accomplished, even though i may or may not have my legs tomorrow. it had everything from working on squats, to trying something new, to improving my snatches. the ecstatic feeling that i once again matched my personal record box jump height, with more certainty than before. spending quality time and finishing off the friday night chilling with mo, doing whatever it may be makes my day complete

rise and shine

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vacation is officially over. that means it’s time to get back on track and grind again. during the twelve day span that i was overseas, i felt so confined and struggled mightily with gym withdrawal. the days felt so unfulfilling without any real physical exertion. i would hate to live like this on a normal basis. i was dying inside but my parents didn’t understand why i was making a big fuss out of it because they simply didn’t understand what gym and sports meant to me. i, on the other hand, have no intention of explaining it to them. some days they would make random comments relating to my built in hopes to convince me to lessen my exertion. luckily venting to mo has eased much of my frustration; i know he’s well aware of where i’m coming from. back home, training and being active is a major part of my life. i’ve been consistently training and making progress on many levels and i felt good about them. but a dozen days without gym access has set me back really far and now i’m uncertain what i’m capable of. i am actually afraid to find out. i would feel so useless if i find out i’m back at square one. i don’t want to lose what i have worked hard for. i told myself that once this vacation is over, everything will go back to normal – no, it’s going to be even better. i told myself i would rep out all my sets; i wouldn’t be lazy, complain or make excuses. somehow, i need to keep myself accountable and get myself back on track if i stray. i am back in town today, which means i’ll be hitting the gym doing what i need to be doing. the destination is pretty clear, my mind just needs to work with me. it’ll be a long road back, but i must refocus and work harder to negate that deficit. june is a month of many changes and challenges; one that i am going to make things happen. it will be worth it in the end

day 950 – monday hustle

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monday stats are usually outrageous, today was no different despite barely regaining my normal capacity. if asked, at the beginning of today, if i could have achieved these numbers by the end of the day, i would have thought that was a preposterously impossible. in fact i was just aiming to make it through training and dodgeball without collapsing. it feels amazing my output was far beyond what my mind thought i could muster. i’m glad i was pushed to work my butt off and make that stats line. i’ll feel the effects tomorrow but it’s definitely worth every ounce of sweat and effort put forth today

day 901 – plyo power

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i knew what i was in for the moment i stepped into the gym today. it was all about drilling and drilling plyos because that’s what i wanted so that’s exactly what i got. the buckets of sweat from today said it all. it’s a very fulfilling and satisfying session cause i felt like i gave it my all and made every rep count. there was no holding back nor conserving energy for next sets on this day. this should be my hardest working session yet where all breaks received were hard earned

day 874 – box jump

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decided on a chill gym session on my off training day, but reality is, i shouldn’t have any off days anyways. all this holiday splurge of food is doing me all bad and no good. my latest targets has me working on my vertical just so i can take my pursuits to the next level. i didn’t make this height today but i know pretty soon this will be mine. i am just feeling ambitious and taking on new goals and new challenges heading into the new year

day 872 – student love

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receiving this gift and card really brightened my day. even though i didn’t have any of the chocolate, i felt the sweetness, the love and the warmth inside. this gift is yet another testament to the dividends of what i put in towards coaching and teaching. i don’t need no returns to do what i do, but it sure means a lot to me when students understand and appreciate what they must put in to achieve what they achieve. it is what i do day in and day out that pays off

mental game

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bad habits always gets me. every time i feel like i am in exhaustion, i will stop short of completion and make myself believe enough is enough. i have just come to accept the fact that my mental game is not as strong as it needs to be, and that there’s nothing i can do to improve that aspect. this shortcoming is probably an explanation as to why my game has remained stagnant over the years, where i stop short and fail to take my game to the next level. and this only becomes a cyclical process where when i don’t perform well, i tend to hang my head but not focus on finding the underlying problems and dealing with it head on. just today i was reminded that my body is stronger than i think and when fatigue sets in, the mind is usually the first to give in. so when training in and out of the gym, or anywhere for that matter, it is as much training for my mentality as it is for my physicality. it is good that i get to work alongside some of the most motivational individuals because reality is i need constant reminder that i must stop at nothing until i push out the last rep of the last set. the kind of people that are never satisfied and always challenging me to be better and only then will i come to the realization that i can do things i thought i never could. these individuals keep me honest and lets me know that i ain’t going anywhere until i complete it cause anything below my maximum capability is unacceptable.  i think my recent knee ligament that made me forgo my november competition really caused the damage – in a good way. there’s been a recent spark in me that i want it more than ever before; that i am willing to work hard for what i want to achieve and i am going to tackle my weaknesses head on. i no longer want my game to remain the same. i have some ambitious goals to reach and it certainly wouldn’t reach itself. i am ready to take that next step in further enhancing my game, and i am determined to do whatever it takes. the power is in me and it is up to me to train it to work to live up to my fullest potential. i do believe it is in me