day 1096 – walk of life

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everybody’s walk of life is a little different, this is my night time walk. i’ll find my way that leads to the path that my heart desires. it’s been a day of a weird long weekend full of unexpected circumstances and sudden turn of events. one that gave me a lot of realizations and held a lot of hard truths. although it was a laid back day, i am still very tired and could use the extra rest. i’ll give my body a break since i am too sore to benefit from exercising

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day 850 – my time

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running on my own schedule and doing what i want to be doing. it’s all about taking back the reins of my own life and steering it where i actually want to go, not because i must go. i am thankful for all the support i have received lately, it was a tough decision but i am glad to know there’s so many people backing me up when i need it most. when was the last time i could confidently say i am living with the freedom of choice. that’s living my life

day 821 – venting

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tonight called for some late night venting because there’s so much stress in and around my life at the moment that has been bottled up far too long. hoping these people who’s preceded me may have seen or experienced some of these issues before will have wise things to say. perhaps they can spark something in me or give me advice and shove me in the right path cause i am out of ideas

resolution series: [twentynine] walk away

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you can say life is both long and short. how much you get out of it is entirely up to you because you are in the driver’s seat controlling the wheel and choosing your path. the shotgun may have inputs on which route to take and passengers may try to initiate backseat driving, but in the end, you are steering the wheel and that’s what matters most. somehow i find an amusement park resembles a person’s life at different stages of life. each day is very much like a ferris wheel; there’s a routine and certain tasks you must complete and once that cycles one round, you get up and do it all over again. and then there’s a roller coaster where it takes much time to build up and then go from absolute high to the uttermost low in a matter of seconds, or milliseconds. the hardest part of life is living a life doing things you hate doing. makes waking up every morning that much harder than it already is. it’s time i learn to step away from the things i dread doing and concentrate on striving for the things i like. maybe a change is in order to leave behind the load of what isn’t my responsibility and pursue what i am passionate about. in the end it is taking the good out of the grand scheme of things and making the most out of what you can, not what you are given. if you don’t like what are you doing, don’t follow blindly, walk away and choose your own destiny

resolution series: [eight] weed out people

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in the path that i have traveled along, i have met a lot of people each with their own characteristics and personality. as i cross path with more and more people going towards different destinations, i have recognize those who are true friends. there are those who i enjoy hanging out with, those who share the same interest and goals, and those who i feel comfortable opening up to. you guys fill my life and make me a happier person. together we go through ups and downs; we laugh together and cry together. we share a lot of good times and good memories that i will take with me and i hope you cherish it as much as i do. the older i grow, i find it more crucial to learn to surround myself with positive people who can make it a better and more complete person. negative people have no place in my life because they only distraction towards what i want to achieve. i have been working hard to eliminate all those haters out there that doesn’t support my choices nor approve of my success. i am grateful for all the people who have stuck around in my life and made me feel accepted and wonderful even when not in my most optimal condition. i am sad for those friends i cherish but inevitably have to temporarily separate in order to chase our own destiny. i understand life is a long journey full of dreams and possiblities so no matter how many miles and oceans we are separated by, i believe that we will one day be destined to cross path again

day 660 – going all in

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it’s all or nothing, like gambling at the casino. the only difference is i am in total control of the outcome. i think i give myself too much pressure cause i have my own standards and cannot afford to lose. i’d be performing not only in front of the grandmaster, the instructors that’s taught me from the very beginning, but also the students that i have been teaching. saved up all my scholarships so i could use it altogether at times like this. saying goodbye to all the awards, now i am feeling poor all over again but at least i am using it for something worthwhile