day 1159 – thoughtless

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i was feeling strangely indifferent about everything today, almost as if i don’t have feelings. i should be disappointed at myself for the slippage today, but it’s just a day after many disciplined ones and i will work twice as hard to undo it. certain topics that i didn’t want to see or think about came up and only made me stressed and press a little more. i actually looked forward for sunday to end so i can move on and get a better start. maybe i had trouble getting rest last night and had to get through a full day’s worth of things

day 1080 – antidote

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yesterday was a forgettable day, but today is a new day and i can’t stay down for long. the unwanted things that went through my head was erased by a much needed workout. going all in and straight for all the heavy lifts today; exhausting my body is my most effective stress reliever. this has really become a therapeutic activity for me because my mind wanders less when i am physically engaged. all i want to focus on correcting what’s wrong and strive to be better

day 747 – successes of an instructor

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today i received a thank you note from a student i have been teaching and mentoring for the last several years. the note had high praise and reinforces why i have been and still continue to teach to this day. it truly defines why i make the sacrifices to teach because nothing warms my heart than to see my students perform and meet their goals. although she never became a blackbelt, there was a lot that she did right, more than what the black belt itself may have exemplified. i am truly appreciative of all the time and effort she put into assisting junior students and practicing for herself, and wish her the best of luck in her studies

day 379 – who am i kidding

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I find it hard to believe i am making my way to the gym even though my legs are sore as ever. i would be lucky if i am still able to move and function properly tomorrow. but i do whatever to destress and digress from what’s been happening in my life as of late. hope i can weather the storm and these troubles gets resolved soon and everyone moves on to more important things at hand

day 213 – competition day

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bc champs rushed upon me faster than one could imagine. just wished that i could have had more practice time but untimely injuries really cost me. imagining even one week ago i was still unable to stand on one leg, i have to accept that this would be nothing but an uphill climb. yet i was still expected to win, so much pressure and expectation. i didn’t step up like i should have and i feel like i failed everyone

day 195 – down time in downtown

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taking some time off to refresh and wrap up all the grudge and negativity i hold as it is time to move on from the recent understanding or lack there of. wandering around and revisiting an area that i once spent countless hours during my studio. after briefly going down memory lane, a stop at the warehouse was in order