beyoncé – if i were a boy

it makes me sad listening to this, but it also resembles the current. a lot goes to show that i’ve been taken for granted. it’s true that a guy will never understand what damages they make with a little mistake. once done it can’t be undone, once not done it cannot be made up for. i’ve lost all hope in making this a meaningful relationship if i can’t feel any care or support. i can’t make you better and i don’t want to change a person, but i have an option to move on. this really is the last of it and maybe one day, it’ll finally click

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day 859 – exec christmas

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vdl playoffs didn’t exactly go the way i wanted. i was very disappointed with one of the mistakes i made and really wished i could take back. bottom line is i didn’t come up with that clutch play that quite possible could have rewritten the series. in the end the team that made the clutch plays deserved the win a little more. it was a great season nonetheless and we will come back stronger next season to fight for the title that’s eluded us twice. post playoffs christmas party for the execs to close out season 20. tonight, i learned that i am a terrible blind drawer, but i am okay with it as long as i can still draw with my eyes open

resolution series: [nine] honesty

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being true to yourself means not cheating yourself because in the end you will realize you are only cheating yourself. there are no shortcuts in life because if it’s something worth achieving in life, it’s worth working for. the truth is often not easy to accept and sometimes it hurts deep down, but hurting is a good thing because it shows that it matters to you. i have fallen in that trap far too many times in the past and only recently have i realized how much wake up calls mean to me. i want to get better in this aspect because it is the only way to have continuous self improvements to be the best i can be. i find it far too easy for me to fall off track, but i am glad there’s people around me who stays honest with me and gives me the hard truth when i least expect it. i would be the first person to admit i am very stubborn and when i have a certain negative thought, it doesn’t wash away easily. i tend to let little slippages that slide away drag me down with it. it’s hard being a perfectionist because i have certain standards for myself and tend to put more stress and pressure on myself than need be. i will dwell on the mistakes and let them haunt me even if it is something very minor, but i suppose that’s not entirely a bad thing. if it is something that matters to me, i will not let that slip and only go out there to prove them wrong

day 457 – halloween contest

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my masterpiece for pumpkin carving contest that won my team second place award. it wasn’t perfect by all means but found ways to cover up the little mistakes along the way. it certainly didn’t turn out exactly how i drew it up but still proud of the final product. we were expecting much of of this because we were worried that the design was too simple, but sometimes less is more

goodtimes

late night training on christmas day is a mixture of goodtimes and epic fails. i have no idea how many times i have watched this, but it always cracks me up rewatching all the bloopers and thinking of all the times we made mistakes in front of critics and highly unsatisfiable coaches and instructors. mistakes are why trainings exist and reasons for us to keep training, keeping it real and taking it one step at a time

day 32 – captures of the moments

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a collection of shots capturing all the different moments, occasions and events of tkd in the past years. cheers to the instructors’ dedication in teaching and coaching me, time and efforts for continuously raising expectations and pushing me to my limit, providing criticism and keeping me going to develop my skillsets and maximizing my potential far beyond i ever imagined. i have come a long way since the beginning, but there’s a long road ahead and i will continue to train hard towards reaching a new level