day 1543 – muggy days


a whole week of wet and muggy weather further dampens my already bad mood at the moment. day fourteen of being in a splint and i can’t help but feel very depressed that i can’t do seemingly basic things. others just see me as being grumpy; it’s hard for anyone to understand what it means to me to be on the sideline missing out what i love doing. i’m doing everything to the best of my abilities, and that makes people forget how much pain and inconvenience i’m in. the countdown continues, but the thought of taking the risk is always on my mind

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day 555 – more drugs

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back for more drugs because i simply can’t get enough of these cough syrups. and if it wasn’t for zero improvements after finishing another bottle of cough syrup and more bags of cough candy, i would not be going to the doctor for prescribed medication. i can’t continue feeling so useless and weak, forcing me to miss out on so much training, work, regular routine and fun. hoping this will be enough to knock me out tonight and wake up tomorrow feeling human again

day 554 – how i feel now

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the sign indicates my current situation. that’s how me and my body feels right now when all i can do is stay home in bed while constantly feeding it drug after drug. but all i really want to do is get out and train, go to the gym, hangout with people, do my regular activities. i really can’t stop feeling the gym withdrawal. it’s never a good sign when i get sent home within the first hour

day 550 – should be there

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a friend sent me this gorgeous view today. i should be there with her enjoying the snow on big white this weekend, but sadly i am not. instead, screw ups and lack of communication made me drop my plans and left me stuck in vancouver doing my usual routine plus another standard instructor seminar. i am not content to let winter season pass by without having gone up the mountain for some skiing

day 392 – jailed

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how i wish i could be walking down this path on a nice evening like tonight. but was given instructions to stay out any activities for next few days. when physio says to rest, it must be severe because he knows how much moving around and continuing my activities means to me. needless to say, i will not be able to hit the tennis courts or the gym until the weekend or beyond

day 198 – doctors note

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physio’s final words for me until further notice, but to me it feels more like a death sentence. my physio knows me best so i will try to cooperate and trust that he can get me back as soon as possible. i will be ready once i get cleared but i also know that i may have to miss this competition

day 136 – famjam dimsum

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enjoying dimsum with family on a saturday afternoon is an aspect i have missed out on all these years. if it wasn’t spent going to┬áchinese school, it was math, kumon, work, or taekwondo. don’t remember when was the last time i was able to sit down and do just that, it’s truly a luxury. i haven’t done a good job making time for my family as of late, time to get my priorities right