thank you for dropping this quote off on my desk because it saved me from going down a rabbit hole. i have always been a firm believer that discipline is what got me farther than i would have imagined and this time is no different. coincidentally it’s the turn of a calendar month which is the perfect time to pick myself up and try to turn things around. i’m set on making august a good month and get back to where i need to be – my top form
sitting beside my monitor this morning is a valentines beanie from my big boss. turned around and saw two beanies sitting side by side with a cupcake. i’ve developed a good circle that taught me much about importance of self care. thus i’m continuing to keep up with my eating habits and my mindset open. many things working in my favour; though i’ve been really swamped, work has treated me pretty well lately. one thing that always lags behind is my ability to rest
setting up to finish the year strong with an organized workstation, organized priorities, and organized mindset. the new year will bring many new changes and growth for some of us in the design department. the manager already informed the team leads to expect more responsibilities; i’ll have a team of my own to manage. eleven months ago, new manager said he believes i can go as far with my hardwork. my role has grown quite a bit since, but expect that next year will have a drastic change in growing up and stepping up in this organization
day one at the competition was spent watching the junior division and doing some final preparations, both physically and mentally. after slapping on cream, endless rolling and massages, i am doing some partner stretching on the floor. i will do whatever i can to make my leg kick tomorrow because nationals is my biggest event of the year. the nerves are starting to build up as the day wears on, but i think i have a more stable mindset to better manage the bad wolf inside. of course, talking to mo calms my nerves and puts my thoughts back into place
over the past week or so, i have been receiving ample of coaching, advice and prep talk on what it means to have proper mindset. the idea that i must head into each event with the confidence that i will nail my every move as i imagined it to be. i have been told i have total control over what i can give and what i can do. i have been told countless times that i need to believe in myself and trust my skills enough to let it do the talking. my body has done each move more than enough times where thinking does no good; all moves should now be second nature. i can’t reiterate how important it has been to have these prep talk and guidance to ensure my mind is in its right place. it really puts me in a more comfortable spot heading in, knowing i am mentally stable and ready to take on what’s ahead. i can walk into the competition believing they are right there with me every step of the way. it’s true i can’t control the end results, but i will take all the things they’ve tried to hammer into my mind and put it to heart. all i ask of myself is to go out on the big stage, give it everything i got and let the rest take care of itself. that alone, will make me proud for i have conquered and accomplished what i was never capable of before. this has got to be the strongest mentality i ever had going into a competition. they have done so much for me and been so patient with me over the last little while. they stuck with me through my toughest moments and did all they could to instill calmness back into my mind. i owe it to them to put forth my best effort and bring it home
unlike all the previous times i travel out for competition, i am getting a head start on packing. packing light has never been an easy task for me cause i always end up bringing way more than i require. i am portland bound for the second straigt year. the feeling is far different this time. i feel like i am a whole new me because i have people by my side prepping and reassuring me. they make sure i am mentally sound and prepared to take on this battle, and always reminding me the mindset i carry onto the stage is what sets me apart. my mental game is definitely stronger than the last; i know i just got to go out there and perform at my best and everything will take care of itself
having some down time amidst my busy schedule is never a bad thing. spent my alone time being productive at timmys and doing my readings before i go off to training. i am only on the first chapter of this book, but everything that’s been said totally relates to me. this might help pull me out of the many competition ruts that i stumbled upon. why have i not read this book way back to my first competition days??