day 2343 – marshmallow

when i said big things was coming this year, i didn’t mean marshmallow. starting off the sunny new year day being strong and chipping away at clean and jerk technique. i also got my car’s headlight replaced, cleaned out the rest of my wardrobe, organized some things and watched some prince of tennis. the dinner table was stacked with eight delicious dishes. ended the day relaxing with a facial mask. i would say that’s decent start to the year

day 1341 – solituding

img_20200204_1603498884422411839897764.jpgthe only bright spot on this day was watching federer take his third title this year. otherwise i spent it in solitude as quiet time are never good times when being crushed by my troubles. needing to get out because i can’t stand being at home and confined by myself. at least gym is a place of hiding and numbing because it’s a place i can be respected. outside and being with people makes me hide my sorrows, but i know i’m only masking for what i want to bury even deeper

許廷鏗 – 面具

this canto singer has an interesting background. this is another tune that tops my playlist and occasionally deserves to be put on repeat just because i like how closely the lyrics resemble reality of how people operate in the real world. what you see on the surface is usually not the whole truth and can only been felt once you put your mask away. why must everyone live with a mask?? why is it so important to sugar coat everything when we can just live freely and be ourselves??