day 2002 – attire change

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showed up to work dressed a little different today. the attire is different from my usual; a new turtle neck and cardigan. the colours of my wardrobe has a high level of consistency; still wearing my typical blacks and greys. though i was feeling a little insecure, i also felt a little more confident at the same time. the long weekly meeting i had with my manager in the morning was kind of important to me because it was i have felt a bit more distant from him since the transition. after our talk about catalytic coaching, i felt like i had a better sense of direction

day 1946 – second year

img_20200130_204038815882520886118212.jpgtwo years ago to the day, i stepped into this office with a loosely defined position under a manager that hadn’t got a clue. insert a different manager and fast forward two years later, i’ve learned a lot under his guidance, and grown to become a better leader. i couldn’t be happier of where my manager has guided me. he who believed i could handle a team behind me and described me to have a cool temperament. looking back this year, i’ve accomplished a whole lot without even noticing. moving into third year, i’ll have to continually think about what i want to be and where i ultimately want to go

day 1840 – delayed remuneration

consider this a much delayed amendment after i started assuming a different title to stick handle for the tech team. for the better part of the past year, i’ve run the team known as tech-no-logic. i can’t believe this took so much grief to obtain on paper. it was just unfortunate a few people had to get in the way of this process. even though everything is made official and signed in black and white, it doesn’t mean much if the process doesn’t change like how it was promised

day 1820 – hard questions

img_20200130_212545729484898212674926.jpgonce in a while some questions come up i either don’t know how to answer, shouldn’t answer or don’t want to answer. noticeable that i’ve pulled myself out of involvements in the world of taekwondo. i no longer teach or attend poomsae trainings, took break from competitions, skip demos, and avoided going to main school. all i do is run my branch school and keep making improvements. now when asked if i’ll resume my commitments and return to the competition floor, it’s really hard to say if i still have it in me and i have the heart to make a comeback

day 1818 – work morons

img_20200130_2134433351333474827226412.jpgdealing with morons at work isn’t good use of my time, but it’s what i’ve had to put up with lately. one of the manager has been poking me for a while and the way she provokes me agitates me because of her ignorance and lack of sense. good thing she is no longer the design manager, but the real question is how is she still a manager? i know she’s out to get me and she’s already been talking shit to the ceo who is easily persuaded because he doesn’t know better. while i’m not surprise she keeps stirring shit behind my back, it built up so much aggression i wish i could stick her face on a target so i can kick it until it falls off

day 1812 – boardroom talks

i’ve been really good at this poker face game and not let other departments’ ignorance get to me and my team. several chains of emails came my way that almost triggered me to lose my cool today and almost broke my streak. usually my manager would ask me if i’m okay and i’ll say yes ninety eight percent of the time. the fact i didn’t say okay when he asked today was enough for him to notice something was up. i had a lengthy chat with him and together we had an approach. i left the room a bit less angered having let out some. this dampened my mood and i skipped all forms of exercises entirely

day 1731 – project overload

img_20200130_2134022509662159649638735.jpgit’s design reshuffle day and coordinated much of the move, but i was also the culprit who stalled the whole process. essentially everyone was waiting for me to move out of my workstation before they can move in, but i was adamant of replying four nasty emails. the bombardment of emails overnight came from someone who had no business in minding my projects; she’s not my manager and i need not report to her. she’s been slowly working at some leads and managed to break two. she’s turned her attention to me but has yet to find a way to unravel me. some say i’m really good with keeping my poker face and not getting to me has quite frustrated her. i felt the need to reply all four of them in a way to show she’s got nothing on me. i stand up for not only myself, but for the rest of my design team

day 1636 – coached to coach 

playing giant scrabble with the letters from my cnc cut as i prepare for my showtime presentation slides. sitting down with my manager to go through my catalytic coaching, a performance review of the previous year and a forecast of what’s to come and expected of me this year. it was valuable time spent with him as we went off the record behind closed doors. the feedback and voices were quite meaningful and surprising. i left the room having a good sense of my value is within my team, within the company and where i’m heading. in two weeks time it will be me running the review for my team members

day 1624 – matters matter

img_20200130_2255043774634156193698019.jpgmanaging people requires understanding behavior and tapping into a person’s mind. in other words, it requires the science of psychology. and that’s exactly what i’m dealing with at work. i have new found respect for my manager as i finally felt what he goes through on a daily basis. after dealing with some, i sat down with him and he helped me put everything back into perspective. truth is stepping into a managing role means i can no longer shy away from dealing with people friction. i may not be used to it yet, but it’s a privilege to be growing professionally. finishing up eleven hours at the office before another two at taekwondo is going above and beyond; but always want more than i can physically give

day 1598 – team lead

setting up to finish the year strong with an organized workstation, organized priorities, and organized mindset. the new year will bring many new changes and growth for some of us in the design department. the manager already informed the team leads to expect more responsibilities; i’ll have a team of my own to manage. eleven months ago, new manager said he believes i can go as far with my hardwork. my role has grown quite a bit since, but expect that next year will have a drastic change in growing up and stepping up in this organization