day 2477 – revisiting tricks

it’s been a rough stretch full of frustration and tears because i really am not getting the touch down raiz and i worry i’ll never get it. it hurts me so much that even my most basic moves are falling apart. i have no choice but to switch it up and work on some of my old tricks. that meant tweaking my front tuck take off to protect my hyperextended knee so i can get my cart front. i also tried some websters but none felt right and the weeks of work i put into drilling it seems to have gone down the drain. the one positive i can take away is i can still try to connect my cartwheel back handspring which i haven’t worked on for weeks. i can’t help but feel defeated for all the things that i want aren’t working

day 2394 – regular game

the score wasn’t pretty but the game was very fun compared to last game when we played against a ridiculously dirty and physically dangerous team. it was also the last squirtle regular season game and playoffs begin with a one bye week. stayed after on the bench to take pictures and enjoy our lemon tea. ended up lingering for another hour before we got out of the change room. it’s been a while since i last stuck around with the team, maybe because i feel more comfortable with the people that were present

day 2359 – squirtle defense

mostly been a winger for squirtle all season, but getting my time at defense tonight. i much enjoy that our team can be in the same locker room as opposed to separating it be gender. we lost by a margin, but i still had fun. honestly my ankle is struggling when in that skate. the ganglion on the medial side is only getting worse and really bothers me especially in the second half of the game. i’m not sure what i need to do and how to address this issue. what will it take to continue playing this sport?

day 2032 – post game hyack

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post game team dinner after a game we lost with minutes left in the game. the team played sound defensively, and i felt i had a solid game as a defense. first time having a penalty called against me, an interference penalty when i laid a hip check on one of the wingers. i had a lot of fun playing this game, much of it had to do with the quality of hockey instead of fending ourselves from fighters. it’s must win games from here on or our season will be over

day 1960 – gaining or losing

trying something new and falling on my face is quite normal. i can’t lie about the disappointment i’ve been facing with my struggles as of late. i feel like i’ve lost the back tuck and aerial, both of which i’ve spent so long working on. the only thing i still have is my front tuck. i feel ashamed that i’m going through this struggle with my flips and tricks and very few people will understand. sports has always come rather easy all my life and my coordination has never been an issue, but for this i always second guess myself and kind of want to give up

massive golden ears hike

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a september hike at golden ears park to close off this year’s hiking season. getting lost was basically the adventure of the day. what was suppose to be a sub ten kilometre hike turned into an over twenty-five kilometres. we were quick to comment how well marked the trail was, but somehow we accidentally went off into unmarked territory. we hiked through mosses, climbed over fallen tree stumps and crossed rivers. i was very intrigued by the orange fungi atop the trees, but didn’t dare take any home for i was warned there’s a lot of poisonous mushrooms out there. an hour an a half drive back home and i was exhausted. i definitely got my exercise and step count in today. at the end of it all, what was most important was i made it back in time to clean up for a wedding reception

day 1859 – golden ears park

i needed all the rest i could get the day after doing a massive unplanned hike of over eight hours. what was suppose to be an easy nine kilometre hike turned into an off route, stream crossing hike of over twenty five. a day where i amassed forty one thousand steps is by far the highest my fitbit ever registered. i don’t want to move for anything or anyone, and pretty much stayed stationary most of the day

day 1324 – section three hundred 

it was nice to switch from work and school stuff to get out a little. saw so many dodgeballers at rogers arena also catching the canucks and stars game. even though the canucks lost, we had scoring chances and late period excitements. i have enjoyed going to the handful of games this season; the goal is to be a season ticket holder down the road

day 1287 – emotional eating

img_20200204_1658298040987941375280696.jpgcould barely keep my eyes open this morning but i still felt okay during the day. i had all the intention to go training tonight but everything kind of fell apart when evening hit. i went way off track i couldn’t get myself to go to training. instead, i turned for home where emotional eating happened. disappointment loomed over me and i feel so utterly disgusted at myself for being useless. i just want to pull a blanket over my head or better yet bury myself in a hole

day 1282 – blue and white

watching my two favourite teams go head to head at rogers arena. the scoreboard showed the canucks lost by a big margin, but they weren’t outplayed too badly. so lucky to see good old marleau get his milestone five hundredth tonight. we avoided buying overpriced food at the game and saved our appetite for some late night pho; i need to work off that excess tummy tomorrow