day 1575 – long talks

being filled in the world of politics over some sushi to get the latest news. i have a better picture of what’s going on the the political world but that doesn’t change the position i’m in. after this talk, it reassures me the approach i’ve been taking is the correct one. it helps to know these things; i take these advice with a grain of salt and will give it some careful thoughts in the next little while

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day 1147 – evening

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this is where i was in the evening, doing my thing in the architectural building. today was a really strange day which no routine, no structure where i had no proper meal. the conflicting feeling when i felt like i did a lot of things and at the same time felt like i did nothing. i don’t like it this way, let’s go back to the structured life and restore a little order and discipline

day 888 – gym life

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while my parents sent me a picture of themselves at the gym in mexico resort, so was i. getting on with my 2016 gyming just like any other day. is it really true that people make new year’s resolution to hit the gym starting january doesn’t get past the first week?? there’s not many survivors here from what i can see, but i am not complaining cause that means more space for me. less waiting and more doing to climbing closer to my fitgoals with every rep

day 876 – eve workout

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spending morning of my christmas eve at the gym banging out the reps because scheduled work never stops. it was a workout i needed to get in because it put me at ease and made me feel right. i felt particularly bad i lost track of time yesterday and didn’t make it into the gym like originally intended. a tiring session as usual and i’m exhausted leaving the gym, but it was definitely the energizer that sparks the rest of the day

day 828 – munch time

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prepared my very own salmon sashimi salad today made with lettuce, salmon sashimi, tomatoes and avocado. a meal i was looking forward to all day, maybe that explains why i was so hungry this morning. tasted yummy except next time i would pair it with a different dressing to go along with the sashimi. don’t worry, i am not going vegetarian, i don’t think i ever can because i still love my meat and fish

day 809 – sad knee

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not a good sign when it twists laterally, makes a popping sound and then gives in. what looked like a harmless move wasn’t so harmless, afterall i am dealing with a knee that has a long history. got home in pain and to see it swollen only makes me even more concerned. there’s nothing i can do at this point except ice and rest and hope that it feels much better than it looks. the severity of this remains unseen but i do know for a fact that physio appointment comes earlier than initially planned and that i have a lot of options to weigh in terms of continuing with my plans this week. my kinesiologist never fails to give me the dagger as he forewarned me the possiblity of a ligament tear. i am still leaning towards taking the risks

respect myself

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there comes a time when i have to weigh in the goods and bads and determine what is best for me. i must stop serving others and stop doing things for the sake of doing things because life is not about what others want. i have a tendency of putting myself and my own well being in the backseat while always putting others first and making sure everyone else is content. part of the challenge of life is learning everyday, no matter who it may be and what stage of life you are at. lately, the advice crossed my mind to take the courage to step away from the things and commitments that no longer make me happy, that no longer gives me the satisfaction it once did. i feel like i am at a multi directional intersection where it’s time to make changes and decide what i want to hang onto, what i want to do, and what direction and aspect i want to take and improve upon. i would be the first to admit i take on a lot and not all are self chosen. my life would be a lot happier and a lot less grim once i determine what it is what drives my passion, and what commitments i need to leave behind. not saying that i will stop helping others, but first and foremost, i need to ensure that i have time for myself and am taken care of properly. i am urged to think more about myself and less of others; in other words listen to my beating of my own heart because my main purpose of existence is not serving the world. it may sound selfish, but i am simply trying to live and enjoy my life, just like how everyone else is