alone late at night thinking long and hard about my decision. truly thankful for all the supportive feedback i’ve received from the people i’ve spoken with on this topic; it made this tough stretch a little less painful. i think i have made my final decision to pass up what i’ve been dreaming of the past half a year – a chance at us open. perhaps having this decision made will end all those nights of waking up at 4am feeling extremely stressed. i’m no doubt disappointed i chose to back out of this opportunity but i feel it’s the right decision at this point. i feel terrible for all those that put their time and energy into getting me ready for this event, i feel bad i couldn’t make it happen. maybe it’s a sign i need to work harder on both my mental and physical game to earn my ticket to a competition as grand as us open. i haven’t given up my competition dreams, it just means i get a head start to preparing and training for the future ones. next up: nationals
day 893 – tough decision
by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #backout, #daunting, #decisionmaking, #decisions, #disappointed, #earnit, #headstart, #lifedecisions, #livewithit, #mentalgame, #mentality, #mindgames, #nationals, #nogivingup, #notgivenup, #notready, #passion, #poomsaecompetition, #support, #taekwondo, #thankful, #tkd, #trainharder, #trainsmarter, #usopen, #wheremyheartlies, #workharder |
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