it was new years day and i just wanted to be home so i could be antisocial. being rattled and feeling unworthy in so many ways. my disappointment and discomfort loomed over, i didn’t even make it into the gym. instead, i rang in the new year with all sorts of organizational work and kept myself as busy as possible. i worked like a robot and had a productive day, but i didn’t feel much satisfaction. i spent the night spilling my thoughts on the keyboard to erase today and start again tomorrow
day 1250 – diffident
by tongtong in my 365 and tagged #confined, #disappointment, #discomfort, #letitout, #memyselfandi, #noappetite, #notmyday, #organize, #planning, #productive, #rattled, #restart, #robot, #spillmythoughts, #startofffresh, #unsatisfied, #unworthy |
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