day 1944 – jetlagging

first day back in town and already back at work. trying to keep myself busy to lie to myself i’m not jetlaged. that only worked for an hour as i’m already lagging two hours in. most of my day was a whirlwind, but my main focus to catch up on the seventy odd emails in my inbox. i still grind it through to the end of work day and went for flipping. went out for dinner after an extended session because i really missed flipping and the people there

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day 1407 – tirelessly going

been hemmed in developing this new collection. after fiddling with lighting settings and going through many partial renders and trial runs, this is the first fully rendered room i can settle with. keeping busy and overloading myself with eleven hours so there’s no idle time and nothing else but work. if i could squeeze work in every sector of my day to occupy my mind, i need not to worry i’ll be thinking, feeling or crying. the best solution i can come up with until i can no longer take it

day 1391 – stat work

the office was as empty as the roads were during rush hour today. the office was quiet on a statutory holiday but the increased productivity was much needed for my friday deadline. feeling unrested and uneasy all week long because all i can think about is my teammates flying off to nationals; i should be with them, but i’m not. i’ve been using many things to numb my feelings and emotions until something can act as sleeping pills. work is one of them and i keep being my workaholic self to not allow myself any down time so i don’t end my night in tears