day 2166 – eating discipline

second week into the thirteen week self challenge and i’m doing a much better job than the first week. i turned down the cupcake because i knew i would have serious regrets if i had consumed that. it’s hard road ahead and lots of things to be enticed by, but i’m no stranger to this type of challenge. i must stay on track and stay disciplined for what i really want; not for some short-lived satisfaction

day 1364 – toasting 

img_20200204_1621288582902095855352102.jpgi can tell you such restricting diet sucks when all i really wanted today was a chocolate chip cookie. it’s times like this when i crave all the bad stuff that i consistently pry myself from anyways. i’ve had enough plain bread and blandness the past week. my first trial run of first real food was an egg and my treat of the day was pint sized chicken udon for dinner. people have been telling me i shrunk, and my face is noticeably paler, skinnier and look borderline unhealthy

day 1307 – showroom

img_20200204_1758415968982951709021436.jpgback in the office after a non existent weekend where i spent majority of it working and coaching. weekly monday office meetings always has piles of sweets on sweets. this is the time when i am notorious for getting my daily dose of banana. showtimes are not optional no matter how busy, but it’s always entertaining. the pace and the workload has picked up significantly since the start of this month and that is a good sign

30 share it [seven]

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my onboarding gift from the company is secured in my seat. part of the perks of working in this office is there’s no shortage of food. when i say that, there’s anyways fruits, sweets and junk food to be offered even at the most random times. i don’t want to get fat. this will be a true test of my will power and discipline not to indulge on the abundance of food offerings

day 823 – pumpkin carving

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evil cheshire was created by a team effort. i did my part early on before falling asleep on the couch halfway through and woke up to see it completed. i was super tired after such a long crazy week but wasn’t going to stop me from staying up late to chill out and watch a scary movie. no fright night this year, no kicking people as well and no crazy partying, but a halloween well spent carving pumpkin and eating junk food here and there, which i should probably feel guilty about

day 697 – montreal poutine

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and a poutine to wrap up my montreal nationals trip. i couldn’t leave montreal without having eaten their city’s most famous food – where the infamous smokery poutine originated. there’s a lot of guilt with every bite cause i have been eating too much and definitely too much filthy junk food all trip long. i definitely need a detox once i get back and everything should go back to normal with healthier foods

day 684 – golden state’s game

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forget about training today, i am sitting back to enjoy game 5 basketball finals. after a disappointing game 4, i still believe it is golden state’s series to win especially because i do not want lebron to win. no denying he’s a good player, but i don’t like his cockyness. it’s been a close series and an interesting one nonetheless. at least they didn’t disappoint today and hopefully they close it off on tuesday so i can witness it

resolution series: [twentyfour] bad habits

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it’s one of those unexplained phenomena why most girls always take pictures of their food before devouring them. i guess for me i like to document things and have variety of pictures available for blogging. i don’t know how to stop having food cravings at the most random times. one thing on my to do list is to limit the amount of eating out and consumption of unnecessary crap because it is hard to control my digestive system. and speaking of digestive system, there’s been some ongoing issues with mine that i have yet to find reason or solution to, all i know is it is very sensitive and gets upset for no good reason. also wish that i could get rid of that peculiar food craving and stop eating junk at the most inopportune times. i have this terrible habit like the sudden urge to have chocolate, ice cream, cookies, chips and all sorts of unhealthy snacks you can possibly think of. fortunately i am not a big fan of desserts, especially the white desserts and pastries like cupcakes, brownies, mousse cakes etc, but i do like my fair share of asian snacks. with all that said, my top priority is cleaning up my eating, control my cravings and intake to ensure that i do not mess up my already messed up digestive system. maybe once that gets under control, then i can pinpoint what is going on with my stomach

day 611 – day off

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first time since forever i have a day off which finally allowed me to sleep in for eight solid hours. getting in rest and having a party is a combo i never get enough of. nothing like having jenga and games competitions for drinks on a good friday. also first time i shotgunned cooking wine which was a unique experience but i would probably not do it again and i don’t recommend it to anyone. let’s get the party started and don’t let it stop until the night rolls by

twenties series: [fourteen] goals

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everyone must have goals in life because goals are what drives us to improve every single day and what motivates us to strive for better. competition is often necessary because you get to see people around you and what is out there that is possible to strive towards. chances are someone out there is better than you and that’s when you realize all the room for potential growth and self improvement. a little competition amongst friends give you that extra boost and bring that competitive side out of you, but look no further because the point is to be better than yourself yesterday. wake up with determination and go to bed with satisfaction. no one is perfect, but every person have ever opportunity to make themselves a better and more well rounded person. for me personally, one of my biggest goal is to continue doing what i love and play the sports i can’t live without. with that being said, the biggest challenge for me is to stay healthy, minimize the injuries and get stronger. i want to continue to compete as much as i can and get as much competition exposure as possible before i call it quits. another goal is eating healthy and healthy clean. trying to regulate what i eat and get rid of the unnecessary junk out. feeling more determined than ever to set my goals and focus on achieving them every single day