day 2289 – wu’s stripes

picked up the wu’s four striped black belt from the main school along with my students’. one more belt to add to my collection and keep it going. i’m proud of my fourth degree, but i’m more proud of the three first degrees i’ve trained and nurtured from the very beginning of their white belt journey. they’ve all worked very hard to earn their first stripe. i hope to get them more stripes and get more students to earn theirs

2093 – bored

the journey has been quite rough the last little while, mainly referring to the work aspect. sometimes i just feel so unfulfilled at work these days because the waiting game continues. my kits collection rendering is delayed because the sketchup vray license is having issues. as a result, i’m killing time just doing floor plan conversions until the korean brothers can get it working again. i’m just trying to get through the week in one piece

day 1922 – scholarship

grandmaster handed out scholarship to a few of us at the annual celebration party. it’s his way of encouraging us to take the next blackbelt test. to be frank, this amount covers only a small portion of the large sum. i’m not sure where i sit with this decision because it doesn’t necessarily change anything for me. there’s many reasons i don’t need it, but also many reasons to just do it. i’ll give it a little more thought over the course of the next month and see what type of commitment it requires

day 1610 – poke some

i don’t know how i feel about needles anymore. at a follow up appointment in continuation of treatments of my broken thumb, i was shown the needle that was poked in me. to my amazement, some of the needles used on me were as large as my palm. he did some painful stuff to my thumb which neither felt like stabbing nor poking, but more like scrapping with the needle as if he was going to lit a match

day 1297 – where is it


not pleased that i just can’t find the determination i had when i was on top of my game. i’ve slipped far down and reality check startled me and no confidence took a big hit. i miss those days when i stayed focus on what i wanted. the hardest part is finding it and running with it. things will have to be different from here on because i can no longer tolerate my own  lapse

day 970 – kukkiwon validated

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this is an expensive paper that is proof that kukkiwon has another holder of taekwondo third dan status. it’s definitely a distinction i can be proud of because it’s an achievement i can safely say i worked hard for. it certainly wasn’t an ambition i thought i would ever attain in my lifetime when i first began my taekwondo journey. and one that had ample of obstacles along the way, but found a way to knock them down one by one. i waited ever so patiently for this certificate and card to arrive, and it couldn’t have been anymore timely. i needed my kukkiwon card really badly otherwise going to this year’s nationals would be an issue

day 947 – feeling chubs

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the impact of not hitting the gym, not playing dodgeball, not tumbling and simply not doing my regular human things is far beyond significant. i can already feel like i’ve gained too much over the past three days. i didn’t care if i collapsed at the gym; i needed to go. there’s no excuse to let it back track, knowing so. there’s no better time than today, it’s time to step out of dormancy and play my part. taking back the reins of my journey towards the goals i have set