day 2447 – memory lane

both my phone storage and computer drives was long overdue for a massive clean up. i needed to backup and consolidate all my photos and videos into my portable hard drive. i had a trip down memory lane as i was sorting through all my taekwondo folder. i had a major flashback seeing all the competition photos and training videos. it made me think of all the good old times when the team i had was like family

day 2305 – fourth dan cert

retrieved my fourth dan certificate from the grandmaster during the colour belt test. when i first took on taekwondo, i never thought i would have such a long journey, never thought it would develop into a career. it was a long and hectic test, but everything went well up to and until i got kicked in the hand holding a board. it was a blur after that because i couldn’t stop thinking about how badly my hand was injured. i tried to finish running the rest of the test grasping one ice pack in hand

day 2289 – wu’s stripes

picked up the wu’s four striped black belt from the main school along with my students’. one more belt to add to my collection and keep it going. i’m proud of my fourth degree, but i’m more proud of the three first degrees i’ve trained and nurtured from the very beginning of their white belt journey. they’ve all worked very hard to earn their first stripe. i hope to get them more stripes and get more students to earn theirs

2093 – bored

the journey has been quite rough the last little while, mainly referring to the work aspect. sometimes i just feel so unfulfilled at work these days because the waiting game continues. my kits collection rendering is delayed because the sketchup vray license is having issues. as a result, i’m killing time just doing floor plan conversions until the korean brothers can get it working again. i’m just trying to get through the week in one piece

day 1922 – scholarship

grandmaster handed out scholarship to a few of us at the annual celebration party. it’s his way of encouraging us to take the next blackbelt test. to be frank, this amount covers only a small portion of the large sum. i’m not sure where i sit with this decision because it doesn’t necessarily change anything for me. there’s many reasons i don’t need it, but also many reasons to just do it. i’ll give it a little more thought over the course of the next month and see what type of commitment it requires

day 1610 – poke some

img_20200203_1429513128816583509973269.jpgi don’t know how i feel about needles anymore. at a follow up appointment in continuation of treatments of my broken thumb, i was shown the needle that was poked in me. to my amazement, some of the needles used on me were as large as my palm. he did some painful stuff to my thumb which neither felt like stabbing nor poking, but more like scrapping with the needle as if he was going to lit a match

day 1297 – where is it

img_20200204_1634398095597725676931528.jpgnot pleased that i just can’t find the determination i had when i was on top of my game. i’ve slipped far down and reality check startled me and no confidence took a big hit. i miss those days when i stayed focus on what i wanted. the hardest part is finding it and running with it. things will have to be different from here on because i can no longer tolerate my own lapse