day 1957 – seasons gifts

tis the season where christmas gifts and chocolates from students and parents start to flow in. this is the time where students and parents show their appreciation of the hard work we put in throughout the whole year. today’s surprises were a box of godiva chocolate and a starbucks gift card. the chocolates are dangerous because i have a soft spot for certain types of chocolates and will end up eating all of them by myself

day 1305 – wash and dry

despite sleeping at 2 in the morning, i naturally woke up early as usual. morning was a little laid back as i had no urgency to wake up immediately so i slept in a little before giving my filthy shadow a little quick wash. it took a little longer than i thought so didn’t have much time for a lunch before it was time for taekwondo. i could have joined my rdl social, but after a seven hour taekwondo shift, i was too tired and turned for home. i could use the personal space just to think and straighten some things out

day 1284 – fun classes

it’s time to go home after seeing over a hundred kids during my seven hours of teaching today. at the end of the day i can’t say i’m fresh but i also had enjoyment. i enjoyed teaching today and i’m sure the kids had fun too since it was less about promotion test syllabus. mixing it up and having inserting some teamwork drills so the students can have some bonding and fun

day 1256 – new term

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not having put on a taekwondo uniform for several weeks is eerily long but the fact that it didn’t bother me which might not be a good sign. hopefully it’s just the long break and not lost passion for taekwondo or competition itself. i am back on the mat and had a decent first day of killarney winter term. bringing in another new instructor will put more load on me, but at least i’ve finally let go of sunday because working seven days a week is brutal

day 852 – student appreciation

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students showing me some love bringing me an early christmas gift. these are constant reminders of why i continue to teach and coach even when i am outright exhausted. seeing my students work hard, improve and achieve is the greatest reward an instructor can have. i do take pride in seeing all that happen before my eyes. there will be times when i will rant about teaching, but sometimes i feel like i am too attached to let go of it

resolution series: [fifteen] confidence

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i have never been a confident person and i still am not, but i have taken strides in this area. i have very high expectations for myself; the fearful part is when i do not meet those standards, it becomes detrimental to my already lacking and wavering confidence level. playing on teams definitely helped just knowing my teammates will always be there to back me up. i have been fortunate to be a part of numerous teams with awesome teammates that support each other so well and prides in teamwork and team building activities. team chemistry plays a big role in bringing home championships – i experienced that first hand. becoming a part of the vdl exec team has made me more vocal; part of the package requires speaking in front of large groups of people, constantly meeting new people and putting myself out there in a bigger community. taekwondo has provided me more than i could have ever imagined. having met a close knit family where we train together and sweat together. through instructing, competing and demonstrating, it has forced me to speak and demonstrate in front of students, parents and spectators alike. i am glad that many moons ago, my instructor pushed me out into competition because it has been, by far, the biggest difference maker. being alone in the ring with all eyes watching can be fearful as hell but when time comes i have no choice and just have to go on stage and finish what i started. no doubt i have gained a lot experience, respect and approval through being both an instructor and a competitor, but that also comes with responsibility and pressure. not only have i developed my own standard that i must live up to, but others also have high expectations for me that i’d hate to disappoint. all of these undertakings were a leap of faith that required me to step out of my comfort zone and into a completely new territory not knowing what to expect. from a person who is unwilling to speak up, i have evolved to being capable of stepping up in front of large crowds and audiences. this is not to say i am comfortable being in the spotlight because i still get nervous every single time, but at least i am willing to take that step forward. even today i still shy away from attention and hide in the background. i am still quiet by nature, and only when i feel comfortable around you will i start to open up and express myself. that’s when you will get to know me better as a person, my values, the driving force and reasons behind the things i do. there’s a lot hiding inside if you manage to crack my shell